𝘛𝘌𝘈𝘙 ; bts

15 | pjm

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BEAUTIFUL
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Guess fools could get lucky too?
Because I just received a call from Mika, she asked me out on a 'friendly date' but the word date was what my ears could hear.

I was standing in front of my big mystery of closet, eyeing every single cloth as I groaned in irritation. Nothing looked impressive enough to wear for now.

Even though she wanted to meet me at a usual cafe, I still wanted to wear something, that would make her focus on me only. Only see me.

I had already forgotten about the incident with her boyfriend, as I was busy fanboying over the date.

When I finally decided, I was wearing a blue shirt, with a necktie, both from Gucci,  a pair of summery pants and a bit makeup. It wasn't anything wrong to wear makeup. It wasn't really a lot.
Just some eye makeup and eyebrows.

[in case you were struggling with the imaginations, look at junggeuk being a little uwu in the back]

As I felt a little closer to beautiful, I pulled my hair backwards out of habit as I smiled to myself. Nice try.

I walked out of my shared room with a rude roommate who slept at his girlfriend's all the time, thank god.

I met the owner of this orphanage as I bowed and gave her a small smile. She happily waved back as she with long steps reached me before eyeing me.

"woah, Jimiiiin~ are you going out?"

I nodded happily as I couldn't help but blush. She messed my hair up as I groaned cutely before fixing it.

"I'm proud of you, little cutie"

"Aish, stop it auntie"

I said as I scratched my neck while blushing. She just giggled before telling me to go before I would be late.

I waved goodbye to her as she closed the door behind me, a sigh left my mouth as the smile on my lips slightly disappeared.

I didn't know why, but I kept on feeling down, not a single bit of hyper ness towards this. I always imagined myself to go crazy, to the point where I ended up building an illusion of how I shall react.

I didn't feel beautiful at all.
I did feel sad though.
Like her last relationship was ruined because of me and now she suddenly wanted to meet up?

I didn't want to think like that, but I guess I just did. It felt like it was too good to be true. That kind of feeling.

My thoughts wandered around inside my head but people around me just passed by, everyone caught up in their own lives.
The streets were quite crowded, high buildings on both sides, I walked on the left side of the sidewalks, cars vrooming past me, their gases probably destroying our precious earth.

But we needed to transport ourselves in ways, both financially and faster.
I guess something needs to be sacrificed in order for others to be able to live.

So did that mean that I needed to face her and apologise before leaving?
In order to make her live again?
In order for her boyfriend to live again?

I had no clue. Soon I reached the cafeteria, my hands hesitated at grabbing the door, but before making a decision, I had already unintentionally pushed the door, walked two steps and standing there, inside of the cafeteria.

My heart was beating rapidly, my breaths almost too quick. My eyes desperately searched for her beautiful figure and a small smile forced itself out on my face when I noticed her as I shakily walked towards her.

Her eyes were puffy and her nose reddish, which made me almost immediately feel the jellylike feeling in my legs, my heart aching a little as I took a seat.

She gave me a quick smile before she waved the waiter to come.

"Hi~, may I take your orders?"

"Ye–"

"I already ordered at the front, but it's been a while and they haven't served a simple frappe with a muffin, is this what you call service?!"

Mika interrupted as I gazed at her with a startled expression, my mouth hang open.
She glared back as I cut our eye contact, feeling the itchiness in my spine. I quickly looked at the waiter who looked very afraid.

"I-I'm so-orry. We will bring it to you!"

Before I had the chance to apologise to the female waiter, she turned around and almost rushed away.

I confusedly leaned back on my chair as I accidentally made eye contact with Mika's piercing eyes.

I nervously laughed as I looked down at my fingers.

"So, what did you orde–"

"So you attempted to look beautiful? Why?"

I felt like I had been stabbed. Shot in the heart. Stepped on a Lego.
I tried to make the pained expression disappear.

Of course she would hate me.
What did I think?
That she would love me?
Like me?
Think that I looked good?
Cute?
I was just an ugly orphan who destroyed her relationship.

"I thought it looked cute so I wore it–"

"You look beautiful.. I'm sorry"

This time I looked at her, shocked again.
She looked down as she bit her lip, looking like she was going to break out in tears.

Then she said something again.
Something that made me forcefully smile and whisper a 'I don't know'.

"You're beautiful. But how come I only love Hoseok?"

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fifteenth chapter!
the rejections from Mika.. Woah I feel so bad.
But, pls comment your thoughts and vote to motivate me🍓

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navii