into the jungle [a book of poems]

daddy daffodil

you don't even know how

much it pains me that you

can't see any beauty in the world

even though you have me,

your girl to shelter and mold.

you're always making excuses

and promises you can't keep

while expecting me to be true;

i know you don't love me.

at one moment there was the

faintest glimpse of love in your eyes

which faded to a glimmering

lightning bolt of lust.

the way you used to feel

is dead like my spirit and i'm

so close to putting you back on

the shelf from which i found you.

you do nothing but waste my time

and soak my face with tears.

my wedding dress is tattered,

daddy, you left me cold and blue.

if you no longer want me, my god,

i'm begging you just say it so

i can mourn your poor existence

and find my smile once again.