rants & shit

22th of may 2018

4:37pm
hey, hola, allo, bonjour, ho ho ho

First of all: I'm really weird and random, so don't expect the best book ever...
Second of all: I'm Dutch so my English isn't the best, but still pretty good I guess?
Third of all: I won't have a upload schedule because I write when I want to

here are some random facts about me:
- I'm bisexual
- I'm 13 years old
- I can be pretty sarcastic woohoo
- 5sos is amazing
- I'm super duper weird and random so don't judge
- I'm probably depressed but I'm not really sure
- I have a bullet journal and I use it a lot hehe, mostly for planning and randomly drawing
- I also really really really really really hate school and being social and doing anything
- I'm lazy, not always in a positive way
- I like reading and writing books
- I try to improve my English by having an English instagram acc and by writing in English

This was some random information about me, hope you liked my first 'chapter'
I'll try to stay active and make something from this book!
xxx -S

6:17pm
Heyy
I just had dinner and I got kinda bad news :(((

So my mom had palpitations and was often tired. She had a check or something a few days ago, and today she got the results. She has a calcification in a vein near her heart. It is not that serious yet, but it can be later. It is genetic and my grandfather and grandmother have that too. So I probably get it later. Now my mother has to take medication every day and if it does not get better, she also needs surgery.

I'm feeling pretty down right now and I'm stressing about if she is gonna die and what I'm supposed to do without her, and about my own future and if I'm okay an ugh i hate life

Lots of love
A pretty stressing, sad girl yehes
-S