One More

Chapter 5

Tobias's POV

I haven't slept for days. The memories of my nightmares and the fear of more hanging above my head. Instead I stare into space blankly.

Christina and Caleb visited today. They both rambled on about news and their lives and others lives. Uriah had his ashes spread in the chasm with Lynn's and Marlene's. I wish I was there but I couldn't be. After that I pretty much zoned out and stared at Tris's ashes. Eventually they left and both were nice enough to not hug me. At least, I'm nice enough to not strangle Caleb.

After they leave I keep doing what I usually do. Nothing. I sit there in silence, my soul withering away as I think about her. After every memory faded a little piece of my heart did too.

I think of the first time we kissed, in the chasm. When I saw her in Erudite headquarters. The time she was on peace serum and I had to carry her, also when she stood up for her friends and enemies. All her brave and selfless moments. Every little detail of her face, hands, insistent eyes, golden hair, beautiful lips, and everything else.

The memories start to bring more tears to my eyes and I can't stand the pain anymore. I grab the gun I always keep in my apartment. The pain of death is not as bad as the pain I am enduring without her.

I load the gun and click the bullets in place. I place the barrel at my temple, my finger hovering over the trigger. My finger squeezes the trigger and I hear a scream right as the gunshot sounds and I fall to the ground.

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