The Inevitable Regret

The Premature End

"So you are a womanizer,😥😥 Please tell me it is not true Gosh! I am a fool love is really blind.I couldn't see all this while.You are wicked you are very wicked.Philip you are not different from other guys haaaa.. God!.I am really stupid and I didn't for once cheated on you even when the temptation was at the hottest.Men are really wicked.Haaaa
You are wicked.I still can't believe this
so you are actually double dating.
I will never love again love is nonsense.
I will never make this mistake again in my life.Never!. Joanna send this to Phillip on a social media platform called Facebook while sobbing after finding out that he was cheating on her. She was full of regrets and sorrow in her heart as tears roll down her fat cheeks. she cursed the day she agreed to be his girlfriend and vowed never to make that mistake again.
Her parents warned her and friends advised her never to seek love on the internet. she had even heard sermons about victims of internet dating but she was blinded by the shit called 'Love'.
Lying on her bed she reflected on her past with a sober heart. she remembered how they both met,the wonderful memories they both shared ,the calls,the jokes,the love texts and numerous stuffs .
she remembered telling him about how she hopes to get married to him one day and how many children they will both have. They even planned on seeing each other in real life after he disappointed her giving her excuses why he won't come.
she regretted those countless times she would send him recharge cards so that he could subscribe which he has never done for her.
"There are happy and perfect guys with no flaws out there, u would definitely meet someone far better than me" He would often tell her and she would reply most times trying to be romantic.
"😊😊😊 No I dont want to meet any one better than you I am okay with you".

She had been seeing Redlight and warning signals telling how to quit but she was blind. He would often talk about sex and erotic stuffs even though she often warned him about it telling him she was not interested in sex now that she wants a perfect relationship.
" I want us to build a relationship where we see one another as companions.I love you so much. Infact you are my first love.I want you to be more than a boyfriend to me. I want the agape kind of love."

They have never met in real life.
The few she knew about him where what he tells her on social media.she knew he had dated two girls before.He even told her about his secret life.she knew very well he is an atheist but she would often say "love don't care".How foolish she was!.
"Yeah, Breakup Stop it.... It leads no where" A good friend of hers once her.
but all felt to deaf ears and now she is facing the consequences of her mistake.Although she didn't loose any thing tangible in the relationship but her joy,happiness and peace were stolen.

Days later Philip replied her.
"I Do not know what to say, uhmm first I would start by saying I'm sorry for not being entirely honest with you, Yeah I even remembered telling you about a certain girl like that. My life is complicated somehow whoever u met, that made you know I'm double dating wasn't really a lie. I'm trying my best to pick the right words. So, Joanna I love u OK? if u found out I was dating someone else we should have just talked it out, like ask me why I did it and stuffs like that, I wanted this to work out, I was in a dilemma when I finally realized you loved me so much and I had already started to love you more.. kinda contemplating on what to do, then you said we ain't compatible and you wanted to break up.. I felt pain but also realised we could never work out, Thanks for pouring out your heart, anger and pain at me. I just hope you meet a true guy who won't love u for just the pleasure there in. I Hope You Succeed in all your endeavours, and I'm kinda happy I got you experienced tho, oh! God knows I'm generous..
Thanks for giving me purpose when I thought all was done and I wanted to leave the world, thanks for making me smile.. thanks for the calls and texts, they are a forever treasure in my solemn heart, thanks for telling me your deepest secrets.. they made me feel not alone, thanks for referring me to a beast( the Devil) I guess you are right, thanks for your time in my life.. its was one of the best chapters yet to come.. I Pray in the name of the mighty Jesus that you find someone out there to love you more than I did and never get in a dilemma like I did and that you find it in your heart to forgive me. You made me have a little faith in God, lol I guess that's a start.I Need to concentrate, I need to focus, I need to be alone.. I do not know what I was thinking when I thought I was ready to love and be loved. It was a silly decision and now see what my idiocy has caused you, I'm sorry. I Promise to always stay motivated and positive by your words.. wow! our little drama was fun while it lasted, the best so far."