His hand grabs me-pull me over, making my head fall onto the soft pillows. My face is just two centimeters before him now.
"Where do you think you're going?" He whispers. "Don't go... yet." It's annoying that he never bothers to say please to ask a...
I didn't flinch in my shock. Whose name was he calling just now?
I was still laying beside him, suddenly had an urge to study his facial expression—we've known each other for more than 10 years and yet I'd never seen that kinda expression he showed me just now on his sleep.
"Ma ... doka ..."
There he was. Calling that name again. Madoka? Who is she? Where have I heard that name before?
Oh wait...
Has Ryo finally found the girl he loves?
I felt like a fool now. When he said 'I love you', For a second I actually thought he was saying those words to me—and I could not believe that it still left me speechless until now, eventhough I already know that he said that for somebody else. Of course. What the fuck was I thinking?
Ryo and I are living together, yes. But beyond that 'living together' thing itself, we have an outrageously different worlds. Ryo is a hardworking Chef, who is now living his own— and his parents'—dream. He is so passionate with what he does, there are so many people adore him. He has way too many friends and he is totally living a good life.
As for me, I'm only nobody. Well, I'm a college student. But I could go to Waseda University, one of the best University in Tokyo, only because Ryo's willing to pay all of my tuition fees. I'm not smart and I don't get scholarship. And, at the first sight, people here would intuitionally keep a distance from me because I'm not fully Japanese—regardless the facts that I was born and raised in this very country. I'm a half, and people here don't really like us. As for that, I've never made a move to get closer to anyone either. I'd just left everything be. That's why I don't have so many friends I could ask for help.
So I'm only depending my life on Ryo. I have done part time jobs every now and then, but the money I earn is only enough for buying stuffs for my study. It's not even close to enough actually, Ryo is still paying half of the needs. My position in Ryo's life is simply nothing but a burden.
So, yeah. I should remember that one day, sooner or later, this kinda thing is going to happen.
That Ryo would be so glad to kick me out from his life to finally living happily ... with someone else.
I scoffed. Laughing at my useless self sarcasticly.
I glanced to the alarm clock. It's 7.30 am. Shoot! It's about time to prepare myself.
I pulled my arm off his body slowly and covered it with a blanket. Glad he didn't wake up this time.
I tried to wear my pants and move in silence. Then, I took a glimpse of him once again before I stood up and left.
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