Fours Confession

Confessions

A/N: This is my second story so sorry if it's not top quality. Disclaimer: I'm not the amazingly talented Veronica Roth

Tobias P.O.V
We, Uriah, Zeke, Shauna, Marlene, Lynn, Christina, Will, Tris and I, are sitting in a circle in Uriah's living room playing 'Candor or Dauntless?' "Who's going first?" Marlene asks. Uriah and Zeke jump up and start shouting like 5yr olds. "It's my place so I go first!" Uriah screams in Zeke's ear. " Dude, I need my hearing!" "Okay, let's start! Christina, Candor or Dauntless?" Uriah says mysteriously. She doesn't have to think before shouting "Dauntless, baby" Uriah thinks for a few seconds then grins, this is NOT good. "I dare you to perform ' I'm Sexy and I Know It' in the middle of the pit." Okay seems ea-" Uriah interrupt by pulling out a costume bag from his cabinets and saying
" While wearing this!" "What is it?" Christina asks cautiously. "Go put it on." Uriah says. I would be worried. Christina enters the bathroom and a few seconds later we hear Christina shriek "Uriah, you are going to pay!"
A couple seconds later, Christina comes out of the bathroom wearing a black tight leotard covered red lace and small gems. All the guys are gaping at her. All the girls go in a circle taking turns slapping their boyfriends upside the head. Tris turns her head to look at my reaction but I'm already staring at her. She smiles at me. God, I love her smile. I scoot closer to her an whisper in her ear " You're the only one I'd ever look at" I slowly kiss her, feeling her soft luscious lips against mine.
" Get a room, you two!" Zeke screams. We break apart and shoot daggers at Zeke. He cowers back a bit and everyone laughs. We all head out to the Pit to witness Christina's dare. She hops on a table with a boom box and microphone. Most of the Pit is already staring at her wondering what the hell she's doing. She starts to sing and a group of guys near the Dauntless bar wolf-whistle. Everyone is clapping and howling. Will looks really pissed. I go over to him and say " Don't worry man, you can see in her eyes how much she loves you. If you need to just walk out and go to Uriah's apartment but don't start a bar brawl, okay?" I give a small grin and he answers with " Okay, thanks, Four" I nod my head and go back to the others. I haven't known Will very long but he's one of Tris's best friends and he looked really uncomfortable there so I decided to help him a bit. Christina finishes her performance with the whole Pit clapping and whistling. Will seems to have calmed down but he still looks pretty mad. Christina runs up to Will and hugs him saying she's sorry she took the dare and made him angry. He just pecks her lips and we keep walking to Uriah's apartment. We all sit down again in a circle. Christina looks around our circle and her eyes land on me. " Four, Candor or Dauntless?" "Dauntless" I reply. That's the only one I can choose, I have too many secrets. She glances at Tris and I see Tris nod slightly. " I dare you to tell us your whole backstory" I'm pretty sure a pale and my hands start shacking. I'm about to take off my shirt when Tris stops me. " Tobias, these are our friends, you need to tell them. They should know" She whispers in my ear. Tris has a point though. I should tell them, but it was hard enough to tell just Tris, now I have to tell a group of people. I pick Tris up and put her in my lap. She gives me a questioning glance and I say" It will be easier if I can't see most of them and if I need to I can distract myself with your hair." She giggles slightly and I look out at our friends. " First of all, my name is Tobias, Tobias Eaton" I hear one gasp come from Will. " Some of you might have guessed my father, Marcus Eaton, leader of Abnegation" Everyone has shocked faces and Tris gives me a slow, sweet kiss on the lips, saying to go on. It works " My mom, Evelyn, died giving birth to my younger sibling which also died" I take a deep breath and continue. I see a tear slip down Marlene's cheek. I think Zeke told me about her family once. She doesn't like to talk about it though. I'll have to ask her later."My father used....to.....beat me and my mother everyday when he came home from work. Once my mother died he blamed me for her death" Everyone looks horrified. Zeke looks guilty, I wonder why. Tris has pain in her eyes. I can't do this anymore, but I have to, I bed to be able to trust more people." I didn't, I was only a kid at the time. He started beating me more often after that. Everyday. Every single day, sometimes more than once if he felt like it." All the girls are crying now and the guys look sorry but, surprisingly, not pitiful. I take a couple deep breaths and start playing with Tris's hair.
" On the day of my aptitude test, he didn't beat me at all, I was surprised, I thought he might've finally changed. My test results were Abnegation, as expected." Cue the gasps " When I came home, he beat me all threw the night, with anything he could find." I look away and the memories come crashing in. The pain, horror I felt all night long. I remember I looked terrible the next morning so I used my mothers old foundation to cover it up. It worked but the pain was evident. A single tear falls down my cheek and I quickly wipe it away hoping no one saw. They obviously did because I heard Tris sob. She hates seeing me cry, she once told me. I still can't believe someone could care for me at all. I thought I was so damaged and worthless that no one could love me. She changed all that though "The morning of the Choosing ceremony he warned me that if I didn't choose Abnegation that he would find me, that I couldn't hide." By now my breathing is coming in ragged and coming in gasps. Tris pulls my head down to hers and kisses me softly but passionately. That was enough to calm me down. " I transferred to Dauntless, obviously" Marlene, who has been quiet the whole time, asks " Why did you choose Dauntless if you got aptitude for Abnegation? You probably wanted to get away from your dad but why not any other faction?" " I have a theory that selflessness and bravery aren't all that different , If you train your whole life to be selfless it becomes your first instinct in a situation." Everyone nods their heads understanding. " I remember I was so sore that day from all the beatings I had the day before. That's not the best thing to be when entering Dauntless." Everyone huffs and nods agreeing.
" That day I decided to get a tattoo to hide all the scars on my back since everyone would see them in the dorms" Everyone looks at me with a weird sense of respect. "That has to hurt like hell" Uriah says. This is one of the only times I've seen him serious. " It did, a lot, but I was determined to build a new self here and I didn't want anyone knowing about my past. That's why I'm so guarded and no on knows what I'm thinking or my intentions." " Can we see your tattoo?" Asks Zeke. I can see the pain in his eyes, he really does care about me. I don't answer, I just take of my shirt and pick Tris up off my lap. I turn my back to them and I hear gasps of wonder and some of disbelief. I know what they're thinking " How could someone do this to their own son?" The leader of Abnegation that's who. I feel a couple fingers trace my scars and I start to feel slightly uncomfortable. I look to Tris, she's looking at me with this twinkle in her eyes. " I'm so proud of you" She whispers in my ear" I smirk and say
" Aren't you jealous, a bunch of people are touching my muscular back?" She laughs and replies " No, because if any of them want to take you, they have to go thru me first" I smile, that's my girl. I continue on with my story " I got first all three stages of Initiation and chose to work in the Control Room. I didn't choose a government job because then I would have to interact with my father. After two years, I met Tris" I look at Tris and smile at her. Everyone smiles knowing that the story gets better" The moment she landed in the net, I knew she was special. At first I was afraid because another Abnegation was here and I thought she might recognize me. I was also proud that another Abnegation had the courage to choose Dauntless and jump first. I didn't even jump first, I was close to last actually. Throughout Initiation I was drawn to her, but I had to be careful, if Eric found out I cared
about her then he would find a way to kick her out for sure. One night, I couldn't sleep so I came up with a plan to talk to her. Tris and Christina were in the Pit by the chasm throwing papers in the water. I walked past them and up to the Fear Landscape room. I knew her pretty well by then so I knew, out of curiosity, she would follow me. So she found me in the fear landscape room and I asked hear if she wanted to go in with me. We went thru mine and she found out all my fears, she had guessed one when we were playing Capture the Flag." Tris smiles at the memory"After that I took her to a passageway way I found near the chasm that leads to a rock ledge where I usually go to think. We talked about my fears and past, then I told her I liked her. She claimed that she wasn't pretty or special enough. She also thought that I was too old for her, it's only two years right?" "Well, we kissed and that was the end of that night" Christina squeals and says " That is so cute! You two should have a ship name! How about 'Fourtris' or 'Tribias'" Marlene and Shauna squeal along with her and agree. I look at them like they are total nut jobs. They all silence quickly. I take a couple breaths and continue" We had to keep our relationship a secret because if the leaders found out they would obviously make her or both of us factionless. When she got first I wasn't surprised, she did really well with her simulations. When they announced the rankings in the Pit I went up to her and said ' Do you think a hug would give away too much?' and she said- Tris interrupts me and says her own line " You know what, I really don't care." " Then we kissed which I'm pretty sure all of Dauntless saw" There's a chorus of 'yeah's and 'uhuh's. " And here we are" Everyone claps and whistles. Tris is laughing and I find myself chuckling too. Zeke checks the time, It's already 11 o' clock. "That was one of the longest dares I've ever experienced!" Zeke announces. " Well, I think we are going to go" I say. Zeke pulls me away for a second. " I have a new found respect for you, man. You went thru so much and then you came out in first in Dauntless! I'm sorry for always trying to set you up with someone. I never knew why you didn't have a girlfriend or anything. But hey, I was right about you liking Tris!" We both laugh " It's okay you didn't know about my past, and that my fault, I should've told you." I say. I feel bad for not telling him, my best friend but it was too hard at the time.
" That's something big, you didn't have to share that until you were ready" I really don't deserve such great friends. " Thanks, for everything" We've been through a lot in these past two years. He's helped me in more ways then I can count.
" The person you became with her is a person worth being. You've changed so much since you've met her." I smile and nod. I grab Tris's hand and we say our goodbyes. We're walking down the hallway, heading to my apartment when Tris suddenly stops. I whip around to make sure she's okay, she has the same twinkle in her eyes as before.
" I'm so proud of you, I know that was hard to talk about your past and Marcus-" I cut her off by enveloping her in a bear hug. " What was that for?" She asks. " For everything, If I hadn't met you, I wouldn't be living my life, I would've been factionless; picking crumbs off the ground to survive. I couldn't thank you enough." We release each other and head into our apartment. We collapse into the bed, tired from our fun-filled day. I wrap my arms around her and say" I love you" That's the first time I've told her that, I wonder what her reaction will be. I hope she loves me back because I honestly couldn't live with out her" I love you too" I sigh contently. I really don't deserve her. I still don't know how someone so perfect could like, let alone love, me! I'm so broken and I was never loved as a child so how could I possibly know how to be a good boyfriend. While I'm watching Tris sleep peacefully I think of a way to explain what Tris has done for me. We can be mended we mend each other.

A/N: There are some quotes from all three books that belong to Veronica Roth and not me, a twelve year old with a wattpad account. Thank You for reading my story, love you all!