Imagine I was gone

Before the actual story begins: In this story no name is beeing called! You can decide for yourself about who this story is! Just think of any Artist, no matter if dead or alive,  that means a lot to you, that may have saved your life! It can be anyone! Just imagine that this story is something your favorite has wrote you and if the person you think about has already passed away- imagine he/she wrote this to you before he/she passed! While writing this i thought about Chester Bennington and Avicii but you can think of anyone yo want  And now the actual story starts!

          Dear whoever reading this 

Imagine, one morning you wake up and everything seems just like any other day! Maybe the sun is shining through your window or maybe it's raining or snowing! Maybe your day starts with thinking of me or maybe you have any other things on your mind. Who knows, maybe you have an important test today.

You will start your day with checking your phone and while you're scrolling through you phone you will stumble over some news that will change your life for the worse! At first you will only see my picture. Maybe you notice the odd litle detail that the picture is black and white or maybe you won't notice this. Eitherway, your heart fills with hope that i may be coming to a city near you or that i release something new but your hopes will be crushed along with your heart when you read the hedline.

The news are saying that i have passed away during the night or last evening and maybe you will start crying heavily now or maybe you will be so shocked that you won’t be able to feel anything at all for days or maybe you think it's some kind of a sick hoax. But  i know that those  news will destroy your life. I know you can't imagine living without me. I know you will be desperate now that you lost me. The news may have already said what happened to me or it will take a few days but eventually you will find out  how i passed and no matter what my cause of death is, it will be a shock to you.

Now, after the news of my untimely death broke, you will re read all posts i ever made on social media, you will check out all interviews i ever made and you will have a close look at every word i have ever written. You will see everything with different eyes now. All those words that always meant so much to you, that might even saved your life, now increase the heartbreak.

You will spend a lot of time on my social media, you will comment on every post how badly you were affected by my death, how much i meant to you, how much you always loved me and how much you miss me. Believe me, i love you too and you meant as much to me as i mean to you. I love all my fans and without you guys, who knows maybe i might have left this world a lot earlier. I may not know your name but i know you love me and for me it's enough to love you too.

I look  at you and all my other fans from above. I see how much you are hurting and i see the love you guys are showing me now and i smile seeing that i'm loved and dearly missed but it makes me so sad that only now i see people loving me. I wasn't shown this love while i was alive. During my lifetime i saw too many people criticized me for small mistakes and for changes. Now the people who criticized me so hard all the time, are saying that i was perfect, that i never made any wrong decision in my life! It's like all the mistakes i've been reduced on for all my Life now  left the world along with me. But i know i wasn't perfect, i did make mistakes  but you do too, everyone does and it's completely okay with me! Nobody’s perfect so i never expected you to be perfect.

I may have been famous but in the end i was just like you, a human with feelings and mistakes! I was no better. The only difference between us is that more people knew my name! But most people thought i needed to be perfect because i'm an idol to others! For being reduced on my mistakes i felt like i was hated. My only wish was to be loved for what i was doing and for my feelings  to be understood and this wish was denied all my life and after passing away everyone showed  me the love i wished for and needed as i was alive!

Maybe you have read Interviews or watched videos where i haven't been the nicest to my fans. Trust me, i didn't mean to appear rude, i was just stressed from all the pressure i felt because people expected more of me than i was able to. I swear i love all my fans!

I want you to always keep in mind what happened to me and from now on please show love to your loved ones and don't reduce people on little mistakes. Don't only do this to other celebrities but also to everyone you love! Show them love! Be there for them! Listen to them and support them as much as you can! Inspire others to do the same. Please consider this as my last wish!

Trust me, i know that my death will break your heart. I know how much you will be suffering now and i do realise that you need me and i'm so sorry that i had to go. Life will be really hard now, without me but please stay strong. I want you to keep me in your mind and always cherish all the memories you made with me. I will be in your heart forever!

Whenever you’re sad about me being gone, just remember that i'm at peace now. I'm in a better place now and free from all pain, pressure and stress. I'm happy now and i'll be looking at you from above and always protecting you like a guardian angel. And please remember that as long as there are people remembering me, i won't be truly gone! Also i always put my heart and soul into my work and it remains there so i’m still alive there! I haven't fully left you, i'm still here! You may not see me but i'm here! Just think of me and i'm right by your side, sheltering you from all harm just like before!

In Eternal Love,
your ldol and now guardian angel, (Insert name here)