Tainted

Chapter 2 - A Step In The Right Direction

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Thursday - 5:45pm

A couple of months have passed. I haven’t seen Severus around much unless it’s a staff meeting or Slytherin is playing Quidditch against one of the other houses. He doesn’t even show up at dinner or any of the other meals in the Great Hall. Kelsier, one of Hogwarts house elves says that he prefers to eat in his quarters. He’s been a great help but I wish he would stop calling me ‘Mistress’. He belongs to Hogwarts not me. This is even worse than I’d expected. How am I going to befriend Severus if all he’s doing is wallowing in his own self grief?

I remember when I was a first year. There was a fifth year that had decided to take me under her wing after I literally ran into her on my way to Transfiguration in the third term. Her name was Lily Evans. She spoke of times when she was younger and she was inseparable with a certain mysterious, lonely boy. When they were both sent off to Hogwarts, she was so happy that she wouldn’t be alone. For a while everything was fine. They were still friends even though he was a Slytherin while she was a Gryffindor. When she told me what had happened between her and Severus I had vowed to help them.

Stupid I know but who could blame me? I was naïve and I always saw the best in people. The only difference between the person I was then and the person I am now is just that I’m less naïve. Lily died but before she did, I’d managed to convince James to allow Severus to write. It was extremely dangerous and at times an absurd thing to even consider, but it was well worth it to see the look on Lily’s face - at least that what James would tell me.

 We took every precaution we could think of and from what I understand the route his letters had to take to get to them was complex and changed all the time to avoid being followed. I was never there when they arrived but Lily would tell me about it the next day. I guess I should feel like I’ve done the impossible and back then I did, but things changed.

Lily wouldn’t have wanted Severus to all alone like he pretty much is now. Even if he doesn’t find love, I think that at least knowing that somebody cares is something he deserves. No one should have to feel like they’re all alone

I let a sigh escape my lips and closed my diary. Doing something creative helps me think but writing is something that usually helps me see things clearer. Although a lot of the time I find more questions than answers. My fourth, fifth, sixth and seventh years are getting closer and closer to mastering the Patronus charm.

It’s taking a while but I know it’ll be worth it in the end. Harry’s been helping with his classmates since he had already mastered it last year so it’s been going a lot smoother than I’d imagined. It is however a very difficult charm. So difficult that it is not taught in Charms but Dumbledore told me to do as I wish. They’ve all been working hard on it. I even see some of them practising by the Black Lake. At this rate, I think it’ll only be another month before all of them will have mastered it, whether it be non-corporeal or corporeal.