The Sacrifice

the thunder was roaring loudly, so loud it shook the walls of the pale dimly lit hospital room, I closed my eyes gently and tried to picture her happy and healthy...just as she told me to a few nights before she slipped into a never ending sleep.
I touched the bracelet my father had given me before he left one last time then flung it off. "its been nothing but a bad omen anyway..." i whispered to myself as i pulled my legs on to the chair and held them tight to my chest. 'superstition is real' meama always use to say. now she laid still and quiet on her hospital bed. i wonder when my dad would show up i could already see him kicking himself for leaving town when he knew she was hanging by a thread.

"Ms.Rue Lilth?" i looked up at the nurse.

" I'm Rue." i stated weakly.

"Hi Ms.Lilith I'm Alison ill be Mrs.Lane's nurse for the night." she paused for a second. i knew what was coming.  "Has she shown any signs of recognition? Any movement or?" i took a deep breath i was so tired of answering the same question over and over. "No." i could hear her take a deep swallow, "how long as it been?" i frowned at her knowing where this was going. "im not pulling the plug." i almost snarled at the nurse. she nodded "i know letting go is difficult but you have to start thinking about it soon and..." i waved her away not wanting to hear it. she practically stumbled over the lunch tray by the door.  totally taken back she stared at me in horror like they all do.

My powers were real and often i couldn't control them very well. When i was in kindergarden one of my classmates had insulted my looks and i lunged him across the room with the swipe of my hand he hit the wall and just floated mid air. I remembered just staring at him then feeling a grin slide across my face. He cried for his mommy which made me burst out in laughter. The rest of the class was at lunch it was just the two of us who hung back to use "the potty". When I heard steps coming from down the hall I lost focus and let him fall to the ground. No one believed his outlandish story but they did believe I gave him a good beating so I was expelled. Even after telling Meama that she didn't seem the least bit shaken up about it she told me that power like that was a gift and it was up to me to use my gift wisely, i was encourged by those words then but now in this cold hospital room all I could think was what kind of gift scares the shit out of people?
I frowned once more at the nurse who still stood there in complete terror and she seemed to get the message as she scurried out of sight. I already knew she was going to go gossip with her coworkers and confirm the rumors about the creepy girl in room 305 to be true. I felt a sudden urge to run after her and snap her neck all it would take was the flick of my wrist but I knew better and I shook my head at such an ugly thought. Lately they've been coming as easy as breathing to me..although I know I would never do such a thing... I blamed it on the stress but could be something more maybe I was just hiding how I really felt... I felt cheated..I felt hate and sorrow. How could I just stand by and live an unexplainable existence while the person I loved more than anything was suffering in darkness. I bit my lip to hold back the tears.
How pathetic of me to only think of my own sorrows. I walked over to Meama's bedside and brushed a strand of her silver hair out of her soft face.
I leaned close enough to whisper in her ear "do not go gentle into that good night, Meama." After a quick kiss on the forehead I felt my tummy growl. I hadn't eaten in three days. I'm sure all the nurses on this floor knew about it. I grabbed my jacket and began to walk towards the elevators as soon as my first foot made it out the door the mumurs between the nurses started. I didn't even bother looking up. There was no point in making eye contact with such gossipy sues. I clicked the elevator down button hoping it would open quickly and it did but to my surprise..