Songs for this chapter:
Say hello to goodbye - Shontelle
Amnesia - 5 Seconds of Summer
Harry's P.O.V
I sit in the middle of the living room, my head is about to explode and my hands are shaking. I don't like this side of her, at all. The door slowly opens with a little sound that makes my stomach turn inside out.
Her blonde, half long hair is in a pony tail and she's wearing comfy clothes. "We need to talk," she silently says. There it was, the thing I did not want to hear. It doesn't sound like she's upset or sad, just emotionless.
She sits down in front of me, I watch every step she takes. Her small body sits down in front of me. I crave for her being inside my arms, I want to hold her as near my chest as possible - but yesterday was possibly the last time I got to do that. She sighs loudly and looks me deeply into my eyes.
"I don't know where to start," she says. I don't feel anger, just pure, pure sadness. "It's not working anymore, Harry," she sighs with a sad voice. "What happened between us two?"
I do wonder the same. When we first met, I fell in love fast. Damn, I think I was in love with her even before I met her. "I-I don't k-know," I answer. My voice is already shaking, such as my body. My hands are shaking and my head is aching.
"Lately I've been feeling that you just wanted to focus on your carreer, and that's okay - but you haven't payed attention to me once," she claims. That's not true at all. Even though I've been focused on my carreer I've been giving her all of my love. "That's not true, and you know it." Anger spreads through me.
"I've been trying so hard, to give you attention and love. But every damn time I touch you, you freeze like I'm a caveman who's just after one thing, and we both know that's not true." She shakes her head, her hair swings from side to side. "It doesn't feel like you've been trying. It's like you just forgot me once you started to focus on your carreer," she spits. It aches not only in my head now, but in my soul too.
"Destiny, how can you even say something like that? You've been nothing but ignoring while I started to focus on being a cop. Why? What happened? I thought you wanted me to get a good education?" My voice breaks and my heart does too. "Yes Harry I do. But lately we've just been arguing and you're just not the same that you were a year ago." For the first time she shows emotions. A tear stream down her left cheek, but she's soon to wipe it away.
"Can't you see it? I've been nice to you ever since we met. I've been buying you stuff like flowers, I've been saying nice things to you, done nice things to you, tried to make you happy, but lately you haven't appericiated anything!" I scream at her. I didn't mean to scream at her, it's just.. I'm just so confused. We both know she's going to leave me, and I really can't handle the thought.
After a minute of silence she speaks again. "Okay, you're maybe right. It's just.. I don't want to be here anymore, we don't belong to each other. I think we're better off apart then together," she clinches. That literally broke my heart. It feels like my heart has sharp corners that's cutting all of my splanchnic in my body.
"You don't want to be here anymore because of me right?" My eyes are getting teary too now and I feel weak. I should never let a girl get this much 'control' over me. "Kind of. You've been great Harry, and I really liked you, but something changes." The way she says liked make me want to puke. If I could choose to get beaten up or be broken up with, I'd choose the first one, because I'm sure that's not half as hurtful as this.
"Why do you want to split up with something so amazing that we have? I know we ca-" she interrups me like she knows what I was going to say. "No, that's just it. We CAN'T fix this, the thing is, I don't even have feelings for you anymore," tears stream down her face now. "I never ment to hurt you Harry," she puts her face into her hands and sobs. I want to scream out, run away and never look back. I want to forget everything, this is probably the most painful thing I'll ever experience.
