Love Hate

One

**** IF YOU ARE READING, TAKE IN MIND THERE ARE SOME SPANISH THROWN IN HERE AND THERE*****

I don't know where to start. That's probably not the best way to start a book, but thats the whole point of this story, nothing will make sense. 

My name is Carla at this exact moment I'm just a girl with a laptop who is just venting to you. I applied to college not so long ago and was given a summary about what was or is the hardest event that has happen in your life and how it change your life for the best. In that moment all I could think about was him. 

You might ask yourself, who is him. He is the most irresponsible, cold hearted, selfish, asswhole I had ever met. But I would be lying if I say that he was the worst boyfriend I had ever had. I spent one of the best and worst years of my life next to him, and needless to say, I can actually say I would not change a thing. 

Let me start all over, from the beginning.

At the time I had just turned 17 years old when I first saw him. I remember I was at my Tio Carlos house. Like always every weekend we will go over for a cookout. I remember the very first time I saw him, he made me feel so uncomfortable, he was just staring at me like a creep. I looked him like "What the hell you looking at man." I remember he just smiled and something in my stomach told me to stay away from him. I should have listen to my gut! 

So for a whole year, I saw him every weekend but we never spoke. When my birthday came around, like always on Thanksgiving, we will celebrate a two in one party. I remember my tia Flor told me to help pass out plates of food. Little did I know our first interaction was going to be that day. I was not paying attention to my surroundings at all and did not even care he was there or not. I remember, his brothers, my tias and tios, mother and father, cousins, cousin of the cousins were all there. I was distracting passing out plates, my tia told me, "Pass this plate to the young man right over there." I saw him get up towards me I sticked out my hand holding the plate out for him to grab while I turn and start grabbing another plate with my other hand when I felt his hand touch my hand under the plate. I quickly turn up and thats when I saw him and I mean SAW HIM, he smiled at me and my stomach twisted. I know it was a split second but it felt like weird long time. 

I know I know this is not a novela. 

Later that night I was sitting in the dinning room eating cake when Landon came up to me. At the time we were all cool. But anyways, he sits and tells me so what are the plans for your 18th birthday.  Since it was Thursday, and on Friday and Saturday they were off of work and I was off of school. "So what, we're going to 2009?!" Ive always wanted to go to 2009 but my parents were always strict and wouldn't let me. "Or will you get grounded if you go." Landon told me laughing at me. I rolled my eyes and I told him "For your information, Im actually going to go with my friend." My friend didn't even know I offered her to go. "Ok, I'll see you there I have friend that wants to meet you." I looked in the direction were he  was at and I could see him eyeing me. 

In that moment I knew I had to go. 

....

The next day I called one of my main bitches Lesly. Well one of my best friend. I had told her everything that happen during Thanksgiving, from the hand grabbing to being creeped the whole night. 

"Lesly we have to go the club! his gonna be there and I know his going to be there and he wants me to go!" I READ THIS AND I CANT BELIEVE I SAID THAT!!

"What about Luis I thought you liked him?" she told me through the phone. Just FYI Luis was this guy I was crushing my whole high school year and till this day he never paid any attention to me. Sad but true story. 

"Girl, I need to move on. Plus I know this boy wants me, and plus is not like I'm going to actually be with him, his ugly and I'm just going to mess around with him nothing serious!" We will all laugh together later in regards to this statement I made at 17 years of age. 

"Hay si, dude we should go today!!" take In note it was already 10 pm. 

"My parents won't let me!' 

"You wonna see him or nah" pos she was right. "Whats his name?" 

"I don't know!" thats how dumb I was, I didn't even know who he was or what his name was but there I was all hyped up. 

That night I don't even remember how I convince my parents to let me out. But since I wanted to go and do this do that my ass found a way to get what I wanted. Once I got Lesly from her house we were both so excited to let our "hoe night out" plus it was the first time we went to the club together. Whats so funny about this whole situation is that was our dream to go party at the club. I had even told her the plan to dance with Landon while I get my chance to make my move on unknown named guy. 

That night changed my life for the next couple of years.