I never thought I would have this feeling again.The feeling of disappointment.The feeling of being let down.I don't feel as if this will go as I want it to.....just like the other times.I sit on the bathroom floor staring into space with no emotion on my face.Its completely silent.All you can hear is the water droplets dropping from the facet.When it was time I got up and checked the test.
Negative.
I threw the test away.A tear fell from my eye.
Yoongi:Chan-ri what-
Me:Another negative.
I cut him off.This is the fifth negative.We have been trying to have a baby but all we get are negatives.Suga and I are married and we've been wanting a baby since we moved to Korea.Sadly,we keep getting negatives.
Yoongi:You need to get checked.Something has to be wrong with you.
Me:Excuse me?You ain't safe either something could be wrong with you.
Yoongi:Chan-ri quiet with the nonsense!!Call and make an appointment and stop being a pain in the ass!!
He walked away into the dark hallway.All I could do is stand there and watch him leave.This behavior isn't new.Its been constant since our 3rd negative.He seems as if he is no longer happy with me.He always yells at me and curses at me.Maybe this is my fault...maybe there is something wrong with me.I wipe the tears from my eyes and grab my phone to call the doctor.
*Chan-ri On the Phone*
Me:Hi this is Min Chan-ri I need to speak with a doctor...thank you
Me:Hello Dr.Kim I am calling because I need to get checked...see me and my husband are trying to have a baby and all we have been getting is negatives and I would like to find out the reason...that would be great thank you....alright see you tomorrow...bye.
*Hangs Up*
I go my bedroom and yoongi is on his phone laying down with his back towards me.I get in the bed and rub his arm.I can feel his pause.He turns towards me with a glare.I know this isn't gonna be good.
Yoongi:Don't...touch me.
He moves my hand harshly and goes back to his phone.I turn over and silently cry myself to sleep.
The Next Morning
The car ride was silent.I didn't want to speak to him and I know he doesn't care if we speak or not.I just wanted to get this over with so I can go home and lay down AWAY from him.We get there and we wait in the waiting area to get called.Once I get called we both go in there Dr.Kim came in and explain the test that he will do on me.We did tests and had to wait on the results.We were there for 2hrs.Yoongi got a call and as soon as he left to pick it up Dr.Kim came in.
Me:So.....is there something wrong with me.
Dr.Kim:No....there is nothing wrong you are perfectly fine.
Me:REALLY??!Well then why can't we have a baby if I'm fine.
Dr.Kim:Your husband is the only suspect here.Its seems as if he has azoospermia that's when a male doesn't have sperm in there semen.So my best advice is a sperm donor.Alright I will take my leave.
The doctor left and I was just there in shock.It felt good that Yoongi was wrong..but then he can't get me pregnant.
Yoongi:So what's wrong with you?
Me:Nothing I'm in good shape it's you that has the problem.
Yoongi:Wha-
Me:You have azoospermia you don't have sperm in your semen Yoongi.
Yoongi:So how are we gonna have kids now?
Me:Sperm donor.
Yoongi:NO...no...no
Me:Yoongi we want kids right?Well let's just do this..it will be different but we'll at least have a child.
Yoongi:Alright lets do it.
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Fell in Love with my Sperm Donor
FanfictionHow did this happen.... This wasn't supposed to be like this.... But what if I'm meant to love him..... What if I am meant to be with my sperm donor....
