I'm here for you (Jikook) (Completed)

Remembering

(I wish that picture was real and not edited!!😭)

Jimin's Pov

"I can't believe they saw that I had been crying and how bad I looked!" I said, cursing at myself in my head. "They're probably laughing at me now!" I kept thinking. "This just reminds me of when I was in high school and how people would bully me!" I said in my head as I started to tear up and cry silently. I turned on the water to fill the tub as I took off my clothes. I then looked in the mirror that was on top of the sink and I saw how ugly I was. It reminded me of everything they said about me in high school. They would call me; fat, ugly, stupid, unless, a slut, a nerd, crybaby, and worst of all....a burden. I remember how lonely and scared I felt. I felt like I didn't belong here. I remembered that when I was younger how I tried to do the unforgettable. I remember going home and crying to sleep and even hurting myself. I didn't know what to do so I would go to the gym and workout, I would even skip meals. I was finally happy when I joined Bts but only to have things return to the way they used to be.

(Warning: The next short part/paragraph involves cutting....so if you don't want to read it skip the the next paragraph.)

I saw my razor next to me while I was in the tub. I took it and started to cut myself....next thing I knew I was bleeding. I tried not to make any sound however I did but I tried not to be loud so they wouldn't hear me. I didn't want my members to see so I stopped myself before I got carried away. The good thing was I brought a black long sleeve shirt so I didn't have to worried for anyone to see. Before I got out, I got out a white bandage roll from the first aid kit and wrapped it around my wrist. Before I got out I cleaned up the bathroom so they wouldn't know what I did and I hid my razor so they wouldn't know what I did.

(The rest is safe to read...for those who didn't want to read the cutting part)

I got out of the restroom/bathroom and I was about to open the door to Jungkook and I's shared room when I heard Jungkook talking to the members about what happened last night....I also heard the members talking how they wanted to help me and how they were concerned about me and how they would do anything to make me feel...happy. I felt tears running down my cheeks. They really did.....care. I thought as I went into the room before they realize I was there and I fell asleep as the water started to pour outside. Before I went to sleep I knew that.....

This was gonna be a long night....

A/N: Sorry for the short chapter/part...I'll try to update tomorrow. Or asap. Also this wasn't proofread! Sorry for any mistakes!