My poems/lyrics

As you fade away

What am i to do

When i'm left with the thoughts of you

You broke my heart

And now i am torn apart

I'm never able to sleep at night

I can no longer fight

I know tomorrow there won't be any light

And i am no longer going to fight

He comes around

And i come to an end

Even though you said we could still be friends

there's something inside of me

That feels like it's dying

You were everything I needed, cared for

I chose you, but now my heart is sore

You will never realize that you were my best friend too

but believe me when I say this

I really did love you

You promised that you would stay

And now i see you slipping away

I wish i could undo

What you've put me through

You promised you wouldn't leave

But i guess that promise was deceived

And now i lay here

The pain is too much to bear

No matter how much i hold you dear

I have this overwhelming fear

That you won't care about my tears

I can already see that you don't

I just want this to detente

But i know that wont happen

Because this “friendship” has already dampened

But i can still dream, right?

Oh wait, no i cant due to all of these sleepless nights

And i try with all my might

But i still cant sleep tight

I may be smiling on the outside

But i promise you, im crying on the inside

And i am forced to cover it

And it feels like i can't overcome it

I have to grit my teeth

And try and get over this grief

I cry when i'm alone

I feel as if i am all on my own

And i wonder can no one see the smile that i am faking

That on the inside i am constantly shaking

People claim that they know me well

But they can't see through my cracking shell

“Im fine” i say, my sadness goes unknown

They don't know that i feel so alone

I pull down my sleeves to cover my hurt

And now i am always on alert

The real me is on the inside where no one else can see

I can fool everyone else so why can't i fool me

It's just all too real

That know one else knows how i feel

I get that you never knew

Because, then again, why would i tell you

I keep my pain hidden

Along with my dreams to give in

I can not escape this

I know that this is true

Even after all this time

I look in the mirror and scream i hate you

I wanna run away from here

From all of this self hate

And all of my fear

I want to be in your embrace

I want to run away without a trace

But i need to deal with this face to face

I gotta finish this race

I bet she could never comprehend

How much i want my life to end

But it will be all okay

Because i know she won't remember me anyway

I look into her eyes

As she steps away with her final goodbye

I wonder as she made that final choice

If she heard the pain in my voice

When i begged her to stay

And not to fade away