Autophobia

Chapter 12: Surprise

A buzzing woke me up from my sleep. It was my phone again. I decided to finally look at it since it had been going off all night.

Unknown: You have 2 months

Two months, what's in two months.

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"Devyn who's more important, me or your lying son of a bitch father," my mom was angry, but that wasn't anything new.

I knew a lot more than what a normal five year old should. My mom was a drug dealer and gang leader. Movies alway glorified this life but it's nothing to glorify. She was always stuck on her next fix whether it be weed, acid, heroine, meth, cocaine, it didn't matter the drugs alway came first. Not food, not the electricity bill or clothes that didn't make me look like a slob.

I got my moms hammy downs and she got whatever she wanted. My clothes were bagging and dirty since we didn't have any power to do laundry. She was always gone and she always had one of her many boyfriends babysit me, but babysitting was the last thing they did to me.

I knew it was all wrong. I should be going school like the other kids. I shouldn't feel like I'm going to throw up because my hunger pains were so bad. My mom should be at home with me. She shouldn't be smoking/shooting herself up.

"I want to be normal mom. I want to be like the other kids." My voice was cracking I was scared to tell her what she didn't want to hear. I didn't want her to take her anger out on me.

"Devyn, I give you what you need stop being selfish!" Her eyebrows furrowed down at me. "You know I never put you in any real danger! What did I tell you about believing everything you father tells you! He is a lier! He left us Devyn he doesn't deserve time with you, I've raised you practically by myself!"

"But mom he had to or the people were going to take me," I tried to plead with her but it never worked.

"THOSE ARE LIES DEVYN! I THOUGHT I MADE IT CLEAR TO YOU THAT YOUR FATHER IS A PIECE OF SHIT WHO WILL NEVER LOVE YOU!" Her voice hurt my ears.

"Momma no, he loves me more than you do!" Tears slide down my cheeks.

"STOP," she smacked me across the face. "HES LYING, NO ONE LOVES A SPOILED LITTLE BRAT LIKE YOU." Her face was red from all of her screaming.

"He does, I get food and we have lights and I don't smell bad. He doesn't put the needle in his arm to be happy mom," I knew I made her angry.

"TRADER!" She screamed at the top of her lungs. "You will be like me when your older Devyn. If you don't find your way by 24 I will track you down. Mark my words child."

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"No, no, no," I checked my calendar, exactly two months until my 24th birthday. "Fuck!"

I didn't know what to do. I can't make my own gang, the only way is to marry in. I had to lead or co-lead.

My phone rang, the same unknown caller.

"Miss me," It was female voice, no else's voice filled my blood with more hatred than hers.

"Can't really say I do," I tried to mask my emotions, though it was hard for me to mask my anger.

"Aww is lil dev still mad at her mommy?" I could feel her mocking me. "Get over it! I told when you decided to leave with that back stabbing excuse, that this is what I expected of you. You have two months Devyn. Find a gang leader to marry and I'll go away." Her voice was poison in my ears.

"And if I don't?"

"Everyone you, and your clan members love is gone. I'll tear you apart one by one leaving that rapper you lead with to fall back into his old habits." How did she know Colson?

"Old habits?" I questioned.

"Oh didn't you know. The boy you've been locking lips with was like your mom. Drugs are his get away." How the fuck did she know so much about Colson? How the fuck did she know about me and Colson? "I know a lot more than you think girl, and if you don't carry out the deal your world is going to come crashing down in the most painful way possible."

"Why are you like this. Why turn against your own daughter. I left because of your boyfriends, do you know what they did to me?" My anger was building up and was about to be unleashed any second. The phone was silent for a minute.

"It's family tradition, I don't make the rules. Also I'd start by asking your rapper friend some questions." The line went dead.
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Sorry guys I know it's short I'm working on more chapters now or at least trying to anyway. I'm trying to stay on schedule with updates but as you can see it's not going to well. Correct any spelling errors please;)

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