totally not a rip off of Jamie's journal this is Allisons journal

Monday, May 28, 2018

I almost had to go to a mental hospital again. Me and my dad fight a lot. It gets really bad to the point where I just want to scream "IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF." I have done that before, and ended up with me infront of the hospital doors. I didnt have to go to a mental hospital through after I convinced my dad not to take me. But, today I tried giving myself an asthma attack. He was yelling, I was yelling, and after 5mins of sobbing I started breathing in and out very quickly. (By the way, my asthma is so bad I had to start taking medication for 13 year olds when I was ten, if you take advair, then my label says 250/100) My dad told me to stop, but I didn't and started to feel really lightheaded. I was about to blackout when he legit just yelled at the top of his lungs to stop, then I was coughing and hacking for 15 minutes. I was going to give myself an asthma attack though. I was literally trying to commit suicide. He Didn't know that.... I guess. He told me to put shoes on. I freaked out and knew he was legitamemtally going to put me in a mental hospital. I talked him out of it and that was my day. I have many issues and I'm glad I see my therapist tommorow.