My heart is aching
When I see you smiling,
And even weeping,
Every time I witness you and your lovers laughing.
I don’t know why I’m attracted by you.
For the first place, you’re not the man that I do hope so,
To be art of my life,
Even to my stone like heart.
But it just came in a way like wary.
One day, you take my heart away
With those eyes of you so dreamy
Make me ought your presence like a majestic prey.
I tag you everywhere
Even followed you in facebook and twitter,
Liked all your deeds so eager,
Even though some of them... hurts me deeper.
I became your friend
Or a plaything maid to be corrected,
But at least I’m happy, happy that for all these years you finally notice me,
Even just as if, an innocent toad in a forest of grief.
Moreover I accepted it blindly,
And followed my heart unregretfuly.
Forgot about my values and dignity,
Just to make you mine completely.
Everything was according to what I expected, I think?
Where now more than friends, I guess?
But why do I felt empty and dead?
For I’ve been noticed that getting you, I lost some of myself.
This emptiness got stronger,
That barely made me day by day weaker!
And even more lonelier,
To realized: I'M ALONE TO A MAN, WHICH I ASSUMED TO BE MY LOVER.
