Collecting The Pieces

The News

Dear Diary, 

Ive done it. Ive done it yet again, Ive cut myself. I am being automatically turned into a role model. Why would any parent want their kid to be like me? 

I starve myself and I self harm. They don't know anything...Not that I want them to know. My first movie ever, Camp Rock, premiered four days ago and now I have to hide my scars and new wounds even better...

I was interrupted by a knock on the door,  it was my mother, Diana.

" Demi, you agent booked you an interview with Ellen Degeneres. " she said scraping her nail polish with her fingers. I couln't help but chuckle, she was practicing saying big news, something she was never really good at. 

" Its ok mom, you can freak out if you want to. " I said acting casual myself.

" Oh My Gosh, I just can't believe that my baby is on TV! "

"Err.. mom, I was on Barney..."

"Yeah but this is...I don't know...Bigger! " She said giving me a warm smile that you can only get from a mother. 

I heard screeching coming from the downstairs. I already knew that it was Dallas. She had a screech that could possibly break your eardrums. 

" Demi! Demi! " She said thumping her feet on the stairs.

" I'm in my room!" I yelled back. 

" Oh My Gosh! " She said popping her head into the door frame. 

" What? " I asked excitedly. 

" You're on TELEVISION! " She said jumping up and down

" Wait, are they showing a re-run of Camp Rock? "

" No. Your on the news! " she said still jumping up and down.

I could of sworn I heard my heart drop. Did they found out about the cutting? I doubt it, I mean Dallas looked very excited. Why would she be excited about her sister cutting herself? Specially since its on the news for the public to see.

I rushed to my bed and grabbed my diary. I headed downstairs skipping 2 steps at a time. I saw my little sister, Maddie, laying on the couch with her feet up.

" Come see, Demi! " she said pointing at the television set.

I walked down the last few steps focusing on what the news anchor was saying...

* Fifteen year old, Demi Lovato, is quickly becoming a role model to millions of boys and girls around the world. With her new Disney Channel movie, Camp Rock, we will be certainly hearing more about this teenage star. * 

It showed a few pictures from the movie and played ' Who Will I Be' from the movie as well.

I sat down on the couch forcing a smile to meet my face. My lips quivered a bit while I tried flashing my now Gap-less teeth. My eyes were glued onto the screen.

Role model. Role Model. Role Model. Role Model.

The words kept repeating in my head.

" Demi Lovato is quickly becoming a role model to MILLIONS of boys and girls." That's what the rest of the people heard but what I heard was...

" Demi Lovato, the girl who cuts herself and starves herself is quickly become a role model to MILLIONS of boys and girls. "

I felt sick. Like my stomach was ripped out of me and squashed with a hammer. I still struggled to keep my smile convincing. 

When I finally realized that I had my fake smile on for three minutes already Maddie looked at me with a worried expression.

" Are you ok, Demi? "

" Err.. Yeah. Don't worry about it Maddie. " I realized that my voice sounded croakier and deeper than usual.

I got off the couch, picked up my diary and headed for my room. I already knew what I was going to do once I got up there, and the thought of it made my eyes water up with tears.

Authors Note: Hi there! Alright, first things first, this story will have a many FALSE things it in. Remember that It's a Fan FICTION. Not all of the things that happened in this story did happen. I'm making a lot of the stuff up.

- Lily xo