The hidden secret

the one with george shelley

It's my first birthday with out my mother and I can't bare it. I mean I have only turned 16 and it has been an emotional month for me, but I no what my mum would of wanted.. I have been trying to get in touch with my dad knowing that the last thing he text me was telling me to stay out is he's life. I really don't no what to do. But I no that my mam would of wanted me to move on and start a knew life and forget about her but I just can't she will always be in my mind and heart.

However I have just packed all of my clothes, and I am starting my knew life in a complete different city (New York) it's actually the city where my dad lives in but never mind he is not worth my love anymore. I am starting to take my life situations out on the 2 people who is truly there for me witch is my aunt who is called Donna and my cousin called Lauren. Just had a massive argument telling them that they are not there for me.. But if it wasn't for them I wouldn't be standing here today.

Lauren and I are going to get our selfs out and get to no the city. This was Lauren's idea by the way, Where standing out side of costa coffee just talking and having a laugh then Lauren points at this gorgeous boy and say 'oh my goodness.. Is that george Shelley out of union j?'

Weird enough but I have never heard of the band. So I just laughed and said 'what's a union j?'

And she replied with 'a British extremely HOT boy band member. Maybe I should go and introduce myself'

I just smiled and said 'if you want to embarrass your self. And why would he be in this city?'

Lauren says 'well I don't no I am just going to get a picture with him'

Anyways we go in to costa coffee and she gets 2 photos with him and then he looks at me with he's bold brown I would have to say CUTE eyes.. And says 'would you like to get into a photo so I can put it on twitter'

I just laughed and said ' no it's alright I don't really no who you are. It's my cousin who's the fan.'

He just laughs then comes over to me and gives me a cuddle and whispers in my ear 'Central park at 6' then walks away then winks at me while he walks out the door.

To be honest he actually put a huge smile on my face. I just didn't no wether i should of went up to meet someone I barely knew but i guess some girls wouldn't dare pass an opportunity on having a night out with a union j member I was just wondering why he chose me to go out with and not Lauren I mean she's the 'jcat' not me. But I might just give him a shot because he is extremely cute.

I meet him at Central Park and the first thing he said was 'Waw'

I gave him an unsure look and said 'what' he replied with 'Ermm you just look beautiful' i just laughed and said 'don't be daft'...... The night ended unfortunately.. I got to no almost everything about george .. This feels like love.. My heart goes out to george I could tell how caring he was but first impression is always the best.. I didn't want to get into something serious strait away but I definitely wanted to go out with him another day when he's free.

As soon as I got in I started to get loads of texts of george saying he would really like to go out again when he's not on stage. But then we came up with this idea that I would go and see union j as a group performing on stage, just to get to no george abit more.. So I bought 2 tickets online and told Lauren that she could come with me.. And she couldn't get to sleep and all she was going on about was how much she loved them it got to the point where I fell asleep on her talking away..

Next morning soon as I open my eyes I see Lauren picking out clothes for me saying 'wakey wakey' I reply in a very tired voice 'what time is it?' Lauren said 'time you got dressed as we need to be first in the que' I then looked at the time and shouted '8am are you serious?' And we got ready and we started to que at 1pm even tho the show didn't start till 7pm. This was totally Lauren's idea.

7pm comes and we're right at the front and union j started singing a song called where are you now. And soon as I heard george my heart sunk and I just cheered. Not as loud as Lauren! George then looks at me then says 'come on stage' so I go on stage and he started singing amaze me. Amazing song right? I had this lump in my throat. You no the feeling where you think your going to cry? When he's verse came on he just stared at my eyes and tightly grabbed my hand and pulled me closer to him... Then I turned away and started looking at the audience and I just saw Lauren with angry tears and giving me an evil look whilst stamping her feet.

The concert then finished and I tried to catch up to Lauren.. I finally caught up to her and she just said 'don't touch me and just leave me alone' I said what's have I done wrong' she just continued to cry and ran in our apartment and slammed her bedroom door. I walked in her room and said 'Lauren can we please talk what have I done wrong' she eventually stopped crying and said 'you don't even like union j and when you where that close to my idol you pretended you liked him when only yesterday you didn't have a clue who they where' by then I got pissed of and said 'if it wasn't for me you wouldn't of been to see union j today look it's not my fault that george chose me to come on stage okay!' Lauren then looked disguised in me and said 'just like your mam dying wasn't your fault' I then ran up to Lauren and chucked her of the bed then said very angrily 'what did you just say' Lauren just smirked and said 'you heard me. If it was for you been a spoilt brat and wanting your mam to drive in the icy wether to watch your shitty little Christmas show she would still be here' I just clenched my fist up then walked away.

I go in my room and jump on my bed then grabs the photo of me and my mam and I then began to sob. I was thinking what could I possibly do to change things and make things right and all I could her in my mind was the word 'nothing' I knew nothing could bring my mam back but all I wanted was her to tell me I looked beautiful even if she lied to me but I am going to truly miss her. I was over thinking. Right at that moment I didn't want anything in my life just my mam as she was the most loving human being ever. George was keep FaceTiming me and I honestly didn't want to talk to anyone at that moment. All the tears what was streaming down my face was unbelievable. You no when you cry so much where you can't actually breath? That's what I was doing. I then sobbed myself to sleep.

Next morning Lauren comes in the room with bed in breakfast and she says 'I'm so sorry about last night I no what I said yesterday was unforgettable but I was so angry and I shouldn't of been because you where right'..... I just looked at her and said 'it's fine' she said 'no it's not I was a horrible person yesterday and if you went on like that to me I would of slapped you but you stopped yourself and it's pathetic really all over a boy band.. Let me make it up to you how about both of us go to Lickety split.. It's your favourite ice cream shop' I just got out of bed and said 'ice cream sounds good to me'

So we leave to go to Lickety split and we got on and I forgived her.

In the middle of my vanila ice cram and george rings me so I run to the toilet and answers ... George says 'finally you have answered.. What's up' I just replied with 'nothing at all why you wanting to no?' He just says 'because I thought the worst yesterday you ran out after I sang to you and you never answered your calls.. I guess I just got abit worried' I just smiled and couldn't stop smiling I mean no one has ever been worried about me.. I just said 'oh am sorry I just had to be somewhere I didn't think you where going to be worried' he said 'of corse I was gonna worry I thought you didn't like our music or the concert in general' I just laughed and said 'don't be daft I loved all of you song especially the song where you say feels like a party every time you come around.. I mean that's definitely my type of music' he said 'ohh am glad you enjoyed it, maybe we can talk more over coffee' I just got this butterfly feeling and said 'al be there' and we hung up. I just started to do a little dance.