Who Knew?

Confessions

Lena-

While putting on the pajamas Stef had giving me to sleep in tonight, I couldn't help but to continue to wonder on whether us going back and forth flirting with each other was any indication that she was gay. While lost in my thoughts, I heard a knock on the door. Come in, I said. Stef entered the room, I just wanted to know is everything okay with the room, she asked. Yes thank you, everything is wonderful, and thank you for the pajamas, I said. You're welcome, well I guess I better get to my room, she said. If you need anything don't hesitate to come find me, she said. I think you're going to regret making that offer Stef, I said laughing, laughing herself. Well good night, sleep well, she said. You too, I said, as she left the room.

Two hours of tossing and turning not being able to sleep, I decide to go an fix myself some warm milk, it always seems to help me. Leaving the bedroom, being quiet so not to wake Stef, I make my way to the kitchen, but when I enter she's already there. Hi, I said, you couldn't sleep either, I asked. No, she said, you? she asked. Same, I said. I was coming in to fix myself some warm milk, it helps me sleep, I said. Help yourself, she said. Opening the refrigerator and getting the milk out, she hands me a pot. While you're at it could you fix me some too, she asked, I never had it before, she said. Sure, I would love to, I said. While the milk is heating, I sit at the table next to her. Stef I was wondering, this may be to personal, but the flirting we were doing, umm, never mind, it's dumb, I said. No go ahead Lena, what did you want to ask, she said. Well earlier, I know I was flirting for a reason, I know I told you that I was gay, I said. Yes, she said. And you said that didn't bother you,  does it, I ask. No why should it, she asked. Because I was flirting with you because I'm attracted to you, I said. I thought my eyes was playing tricks on me, I could have sworn she blushed. That's very flattering Lena, she said. When the milk was done bowling I got up to turn off the burner, and when I turned around she was right in back of me, close enough that I could smell the pizza on her breath we had earlier. Lena I'm attracted to you too, she said. Really, so you're gay too, I asked. That's the thing, I don't know, she said. What do you mean, you said you were attracted to me, I asked. The thing is Lena, you're the first woman I ever felt that way about, she said. I don't know whether to be flattered or scared, I said. Scared about what, she asked. On whether you're experimenting or you really have feelings for me, I said. Well Lena if you're willing to help me find out, I would love to see where this could lead, she said. The thought was bouncing in my head on whether I should take the risk of maybe having a long term relationship or in the end being hurt.