Antidote

One

It all started at the age of 17, living in a house full of boys and uncles. Mother nowhere to be found, strung out on dope. She never cared for me or where she dropped me off to. As long as she can get her hit she was good. "Be still and don't say shit." One of my uncle's friend demanded. I kept quiet as he held a knife to my throat. A tear fell from my eye. "Oh you crying lil' bitch? Let me give you something to cry about." He hurriedly climbed on top of me and forced my night gown up. He tugged at my drawers as I tried to pull them up and force him off me. "Bitch you refusing? Oh you fighting back now?" He dug the knife in my shoulder. I let out a yell but nobody could hear me over the loud music and laughter. "Lord please get me out of this, I promise I'll be good!" "Shut the fuck up and stop refusing. You gone take this dick like you been doing." He finally manage to get my drawers off. He slipped on the condom and spit on his fingers. "Oh you already wet," he said when his fingers touched my pussy. "And you refusing and shit. "You know you want this dick." He pulled me downward towards his dick and I kicked his now stiffened dick. "Fuck De'Zaray! You bouta get it now. I'm bouta fuck you in your asshole now." "No Slugg! OK, I'll be good! I'll obey, just please don't do that! Please!" I begged. I could see a smirk make its way across Slugg's face. "Now that's what I like to hear. Lay here and take this dick!" I did as I was told. I put my hands to my mouth, and Slugg enter his 8 inch penis in me. I squealed a little as he went deeper and deeper. Then he started stroking slowly then he picked up the pace. I started screaming in pain as his speed picked up faster and faster, then slower then came to a stop. Slugg came. "Fuck Ray! That lil pussy get better day by day. One day ima go in raw to really see how good it is." Slugg got off the bed and pulled up his clothes without taking the condom off. "Ima holla at you later Ray." Soon as Slugg closed my room door, I waited 5 minutes then ran to the bathroom. When I rounded the corner, I spotted my uncle June grinding and whispering in some red chick ear. Whatever he was telling her must've been exactly what she wanted to hear cause she was grinning ear to ear. I can't wait until I leave this fucking house! I hate everyone here! I thought to myself. I left the spot I was standing and made it to the bathroom. I made sure I locked the door because no one here knows how to knock. I ran some warm water in the tub and got in. It hurt when I sat down! I felt down there and realized I was swollen. I took the towel and caressed myself. "Why Lord? Why is this happening to me? I'm only 17! What did I do to deserve this?" I cried silently until I heard the doorknob turning. "Yo! Who in here?" It was my oldest brother Dontae. I jumped as he tried the doorknob again. "Yo, I gotta piss bruh! Who the fuck in here?" I finally found my voice, "it's me Tae. I'm taking a bath." "Mane what's going on with you? You just took a shower an hour ago. You good?" I didn't wanna tell my brother what Slugg just did to me. I know how Tae gets, especially behind me. If I told him Slugg stuck his filthy dick in me, Tae gone have the whole party lit up. "Ray, answer me 'fore I come in mane." "I'm good Tae, I just got my period," I lied. "Aight, well ima use the other bathroom. Hurry up and get back to bed. You got school tomorrow." "Okay." I could hear him outside the bathroom door lingering and debating on continuing questioning me. "Aight Ray." I hurried out the tub, and threw my rob on then ran to my room and locked the door. "I gotta get outta here, I can't stay here much longer or ima have to kill that bitch nigga Slugg." I quickly threw my adidas suit and Samoa on. I did something decent to my long black hair. I looked in the mirror for a long time, just checking myself out. I didn't look bad at all with my caramel complexion, almond brown eyes, hair that hung to my big, round ass and I had a set of melons. To say I was only 17, I was shaped like a 25 year old. "Damn," I thought, "I look good." I looked in the mirror for another good 10 minutes, then I heard my doorknob starting to turn. I panicked instantly thinking it was Slugg drunk ass. "Ray it's me, Dre. Let me holla at you 'fore you go to bed." It was my other oldest brother Deondre. "Uhh no. I gotta get up early Dre. Talk to me in the morning ok?" "Nah it's important, we need to talk now. Open up baby girl." "Shit!" I thought to myself as I searched for my robe. I located it by my computer desk then headed to the door. "What?" "Can I come in damn?" He said as he pushed the door open and made his way in. He sat at my desk, folded his arms and stared at me. He looked at my feet and I looked down too. Shit! I forgot to take my shoes off! A grin spread across  his handsome face, "where you going baby sis?" A look of embarrassment filled my face. "Out." "Where?" "Does it matter Dre?" "Yes it fucking matters you're my lil' sister and I need to know all your whereabouts? So where you going Ray?" I had to think and fast. I didn't want to blurt out I was running away because I was being raped. I know how my brothers are and I wouldn't dare put them in a fucked up situation. "I'm going to Mariah to smoke." "Oh shit! I didn't know you smoked lil sis! We coulda been burning if you woulda said sumin. You ain't even gotta go to Mariah, let's go smoke na." "No, I told Mariah I was coming to her place." Dre looked disappointed, "aight, just don't be out late. I'm going upstairs." He got up from the chair and started making his way out my room. I stopped him, "Wait, what was so important that you just barged in here like that?" He laughed, showing off his diamond encrusted grill. "Oh yeah, that. I know you haven't been going to school. You out your top or something?" I rolled my eyes, "bye Dre." He shook his head, "aiight, let you not graduate and see what i do." Then he exited the room. I locked the door and quickly threw my robe off and texted Mariah. "Hey girl, you mind if I come thru for awhile?" I hit send and waited on a response. As I waited I started packing some clothes and everything I needed and wanted. I was not coming back here, I told myself. My phone rang and it was Mariah. I answered, "Wassup girl?" "Hey Ray. What's going on?" She asked with that baby soft voice. "Riah it's so much shit going on and I would rather tell you in person." Mariah was quiet for a minute, I guess she was yawning cause I heard a loud screech. "What was that?" "Girl the tv. Now Ray you know you can come stay here. I've been told you that girl." Mariah knew everything that went on in my life and she helped anyway she could. Like she said, I'm like a little sister she never had because she's the only child with both parents in her life. "Come over and bring all that you need, girl. You know my apartment is always welcomed to you. I'm bouta go set this other room up just for you. Call me when you're halfway here." "Thanks Mariah." "No problem." We hung up and I got back to packing my bag. "I need to hurry up." I thought to myself. I grabbed my mom picture and was out. I crept passed the party and made my way towards the back door. I made my way across the backyard to the sidewalk. Mariah lived 2 blocks away on Zion street. It was pitch black on my street, never did have any street lights. One more block to go, I thought to myself. As I neared the end of the street, someone came out the shadows, behind a tree. "Fuck!" I muffled under my breath. I started to walk a little faster and so did they. My walk turned into a run. I heard their footsteps a couple feet behind me. I turned around and yelled, "what do you want from me?!" I turned to face a dark, tall man. He looked as if I scared him with my yelling. "I'm sorry for scaring you ma, I was just trying to give you this." He handed me my wallet. How the hell did I manage to drop this? I took my wallet, "thank you." Then I started walking again. "Wait ma, I can't get your name?" I stopped, "De'Zaray." "De'Zaray, I like that. Where you headed to in this dark?" I hesitated before I answered, "to a friend of mine house." I had to admit, homeboy looked good with his dark complexion, cocaine white teeth, broad shoulders and swag to kill for. He stood about 6'2. He saw me checking him out, "what?" he asked? "What you doing out here hiding behind trees and shit?" He laughed, "I wasn't hiding behind trees, I was actually leaving my homeboy place. He had a lil party going on but it wasn't as lit as I expected." I shook my head in an understanding way. He kept checking me out. "Damn ma, no disrespect but your body is fiya. How old are you? 22,23?" "17." He looked at me confused. "You can't be that young with a body as full as yours." "Well believe it, I'm 17." My phone vibrated, it was Mariah asking where I was? "Look I really need to go, my homegirl looking for me." "Wait, you need a ride? My car down the street." I laughed. "What's funny?" "I don't even know your name to be riding in your car." "Sean but everybody call me SJ." "Ok Sean, I appreciate the offer but my homegirl live right down there." I pointed towards Mariah apartments. "It was nice talking to you but I need to go." "Cool, but can I at least get your number before you go? I wanna continue where we left off at." I was hesitant for awhile but I really was feeling SJ. "Gimme your phone." I typed my number in his phone. "I gotta go. Hope to talk to you soon." I smirked. Then made my way to Mariah's. I hope he calls. I thought to myself.