Never Be The Same

Chapter One

"You've been a tease since I met you Juliette. You're not doing this anymore." Jake screamed. His eyes darkened from the once welcoming shade of green to a color I've never seen.

I back away from him slowly "Jake this isn't you" I whisper cautiously. We been friends for five years and never once has he raised his voice at me.

Jake was one of the good guys. He tilts his head to the side giving me a smirk "You teased in high school and now college and you shown up dressed like that" he said motioning toward my outfit. I glanced down at my outfit I was wearing a strapless lace blue dress that hugged my curves but I've worn this a dozen times and he's never criticized what I've worn before.

I chew on my lip as I remained speechless. I let my brunette curly hair cover my now pale face. Okay Juliette just try to walk quickly past him and return to the party. I'm not sure why or how I ended up in a random bedroom of some fraternity house my friends were invited to. I took a breath in and hastily walked to the door.

"Oh no you don't sweetheart" Jake spoke with a sinister smile plastered on his face. He yanked my wrist and pulled me toward him before slamming the door and locking it. "You aren't going anywhere" he grunted as he shoved me to the bed.

Oh no. This isn't happening. I knew Jake drank a little but I thought he was just blowing off steam I didn't know there would be actions behind his words. I stood up quickly as I darted towards my only way out. "Help!" I screamed as tears began to sting my eyes. Jake's laugh erupted in the room "Sweetheart no one can hear your screams over the music. Why did you think I invited you out alone and not tell Ana about the party?" he questioned with a knowing look.

He planned this out. This wasn't Jake just being a drunken idiot he knew what he was doing. There isn't anyway Ana knew his plans she's been my best friends since elementary school. "Jake please-" I whispered before being cut off. Jake's lips crushed mine with a feel of want and anger. I knew he had feelings for me but I always shut it down he's like a brother.

I pushed him back and wiped my mouth with disgust. "Stop!" I screamed at him before shoving him once again. His eyes now have no shades of green anymore they look pitch black.

"Bitch! I will have you. You won't lead me on anymore and silently play hard to get! I will have you willingly or not!" he screamed loudly that I'm surprised no one came bursting in. He raised his hand and slapped me in the face forcefully causing me to fall back. I clenched my reddened cheek as the tears began to finally flow.

He wasn't going to let me leave. He gripped my wrists as I cried quietly out of pain and forcing me to the bed.

"Nowhere to go sweetheart you're mine" he whispered by my ear causing me to shutter away from his mouth.

He quickly unzipped my dress and tossed it to the side before running his hands over my body as his eyes wandered my figure. I closed my eyes as I froze with disgust. Please stop I pleaded to myself. He found a pair of scissors on a table and took a hold of them and cut the fabric of my bra and lace panties. I opened my eyes seeing the scissors and my eyes widened.

He tilted his head to the side. "If you leave these will be used for more than just your clothes. Not exactly a knife but these can cut just fine" he shrugged before letting out a chuckle. He began groping my breast and starting undoing his belt and pulling his jeans down and moving his dirty blonde strands from his face.

"Be a good girl and it will be over soon sweetheart." he whispered by my ear.

I listened and let him doing what he wanted. I closed my eyes and let the darkness drown me from the betrayal and disgust I felt.

*One Year Later*

"Juliette wake up!" Ana yelled from down the hallway. I didn't move though. This was my senior year of college and you'd think I'd be excited well you'd be wrong.

I hesitantly slid out of bed and slid on a pair of skinny jeans and an oversized hoodie. My door pushed open and Ana came barging in unannounced. She scanned my outfit of choice and sighed giving me a bored look. "Juliette, I completely understand but sweetie can we take baby steps to get back to the way you were?" she questioned. She spoke cautiously because although she doesn't say it she still feels guilty she wasn't there that night.

"I'm wearing jeans, skinny jeans to be more specific" I shrugged as I motioned towards the fabric. She let out a deep sigh "at least it isn't sweatpants" she said with a small smile.

Everyone expects you to go back to normal after a tragic event that you'll be the same person. People can change because of experiences good or bad. Mine was unfortunately bad and I'm slowly dealing with the aftermath.

I grabbed my backpack and started walking with Ana to class. The only good thing that came out of the Jake situation is he had gotten kicked out of school after Ana forced me to report him. No jail time because I didn't want to stand trial and I didn't want to be known as the girl who was raped by her best friend.

I arrived to my first class and took a seat in the back. I just want to be invisible.

"Juliette Ryann can you come to the dean's office please" I heard over the intercom.

I groaned to myself as I stood up and brushed my brunette locks behind my ears. I swiftly walked into the dean's office.

"Go ahead in" the receptionist spoke with a half smile that had a hint of a sad appearance. I gave her a small smile before walking in.

"You wanted to see me" I said as i fidgeted with my nails. I'm a good student I know I barely passed last year so maybe they were just checking to make sure I was going to keep my grades up.

"Juliette, you might want to sit down"she spoke softly as she motioned toward the empty seat in front of her desk.

Something wasn't right.

I nibbled on my bottom lip "no, I'm fine" I said quickly as I fidgeted more.

"I hate to be the one to inform you but Jake is returning for his senior year this year" she whispered softly.

Oh no. "how?!" I screamed as tears began to threaten to fall. He wasn't supposed to be able to.

"We removed him for a year and strongly advised that he just transfer to a new school but we don't have the authority to tell him he can't return especially since charges weren't officially filed with the police" she explained.

I opened my mouth to speak but I couldn't. I was speechless, my rapist was going to be at my school, in the hallways, maybe in my classes and there wasn't a damn thing I could do about it.

"He does share one class with you, your last class of the day. You do need that class to graduate and so does he. I can let you know if there is any openings to transfer to a different professor but as of right now there isn't." she said with saddened eyes.

I couldn't speak or move I just wished the floor would open and swallow me whole. My senior year was supposed to be my year to move on and now I have to face my rapist on a daily basis. I finally found the strength to move and just ran. I didn't care where I just kept running and wishing I could run from my problems.

**Intense chapter I know! It gets easier to read! Let me know what you think. I'll be having a cover for this book sometime soon. I've never written a story like this so I'm testing the waters so any feedback is welcome unfortunately, not all stories are fairytales and these things happen.**