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prologue

i sit at my computer wondering if the person on my the screen is real. is she from around here? i doubt it, living in a small town such as mine with only a population of 2,000.
what does she actually look like?
is the profile picture a photo she took? it was a beautiful landscape with colorful daisies scattered.

i sat there chipping my nail polish as i messed around with the idea of actually messaging this girl. i should probably clarify what is going on. there is this girl on instagram i've followed for years, she posts beautiful pictures. i never knew if they were hers, her captions were always pretty poetry.
over the years i have accumulated a crush. ridiculous, right? i don't even know if she's into girls! let alone the fact of i have no idea what the hell she looks like.

i was listening to a cover by weezer of africa by toto in my headphones as i got the notification on my phone. she posted another picture. i took out my headphones, ran to my computer and searched her username. in her caption she wrote, "hello guys, i have decided since i'm gaining more i should tell you a few things about me. i am a girl, i love poetry (as you could probably tell), i read more than i probably should, and i'm a lesbian. also!!!! happy pride month!!!! i love you all" my heart practically skipped a beat.

she's gay!!!!!
i'm gay!!!!

now i sit at my desk, staring at that post, contemplating if i should message her. i could simply send her a dm asking if the photography she posts are her doings? or maybe ask if she writes the poetry? i, being a closeted 17 year old bisexual (who prefers women!), basically flipped my shit when i found out she indeed was a woman and she's! gay!
my wish is to manage to find a girlfriend, in this very, very homophobic town i grew up in.

it doesn't help that every single girl in the locking room, when changing for gym, think that when a girl stares at them for a second too long that they wanna fuck you.  news flash, that's not how it works. i'm not even out yet, or maybe never will be, and i do everything in my power to not make them uncomfortable. constantly overhearing the conversations of, "did you see aly, she was totally staring at veronica the whole time while changing!", sucks ass.

i build up the courage to direct message her.

vanessa.smith    hey!! very very serious question. just kidding it's not that serious lol, is the photography you post yours? i've been wondering for literal years but only thought of dming you now????

that was a big fat lie. i've thought about dming her since i followed.
now i wait incredibly impatient for her answer.

it's about to be a long night of tossing and turning, constantly checking my notifications.

authors note
lowercase letters are intended!
this is a prologue i guess? i have decided to join the write-a-thon, #WattPride ! the story's idea is based off of the book Simon Vs the Homo Sapiens Agenda by Becky Albertalli, but the plot and characters are mine. i'm still sort of new to writing so bare with me. i know it's not the best. i hope you enjoy. x