We got to take Ella home today and she was a wreak. So was I. I couldn't focus on anything... Not even hockey.
Woah Kaner... You alright? Asked Sharpie
Sharpie... I lost my daughter....I can't focus on anything...I'm a mess
Oh my god I'm so sorry Kaner! He bro hugged me and I got dressed slowly. Finally, I saw the pink boots I put under my helmet for her 1st game.
I sobbed and threw them in the trash and started throwing a fit. I can't take this...it's too much!
I grabbed my helmet and walked out.
I saw pucks on the ice so I stepped onto the ice and started shooting. I got so mad I broke my stick
I fell on the ice sobbing my heart out.
Toews and Sharp came and sat next to me.
Kaner- started Sharpie
Don't say it I said sharply
I'm sorry said Jonny
I-I stared tearing up again and a took a breath. I can't Believe she's really gone I said my voice breaking. I can't take it. I can't do this. I can't. I said crying
Pat,It's ok! You know things will get better...it just takes time. Said Jonny
No. I said snapping it's not going to get better! It isn't ok and it never will be! I said
Patty, You and Emma are going to move on. It just takes time.
I don't WANT to move on. I said sharply snapping at him. I never want to have a daughter...or ANY children at all! I cried getting up. I'm done. I don't want to have children and I NEVER will!!! I said storming off into the locker room.
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Baby Avery.
PoetryLittle baby Avery Marie Kane was born still. Stillborn. Death. Passed away. Both of her parents are heart broken. But did the Doctors make a mistake?!!!!!
