"I've dated black girls. But none of them compare to her."-JM
[Second Day in hospital]
"Hey! How are you?!" Tessa beams walking into the room.
I don't respond, staring out the window. It's been twenty four hours since Jason left with Ashley. And god does it suck.
"Journey... What's the matter?"
I sob a little, wiping tears away from my cheeks. Tessa comes and sits in front of me in the chair once occupied by Jason.
"Jay? What's wrong?"
"I-I.. I'm in love with him Tess." I stammer, sobbing lowly.
"Awe sweetie."
"No. That's not an awe." I sob.
"Journey..."
"I'm not suppose to feel this way about him. I'm not his friend."
"But you want to be more?"
"Yes!" I sob out.
My heart was twisting with every sob that left my mouth, my chest hurting as each sob got stronger and stronger.
"Just calm down, okay? Don't get yourself worked up."
"I-I can't help it. I wasn't planning to fall for him. I just... I-"
"Calm down Jay." She says again, but my breathing was becoming uneven. Suddenly, I realized I was having an anxiety attack.
"Nurse! Nurse come quick!" I hear Tessa yelp and soon nurses rush in. I couldn't quite hear what they were saying. But I could see them hooking me up to the breathing machine.
They put the mask over my face and soon my breathing was getting back to normal.
"Just lay back and relax sweetheart." The nurse says. I nod silently, laying back and letting the oxygen do it's job.
I was calmer. And my breathing was getting back to normal.
But my heart still hurt. I was still confused. I was still heartbroken.
I was still in love with Jason.
Thinking about these things drifted me off to a deep well needed sleep.
[Third Person]
"What the fuck?!" Jason exclaims as he walks into his girlfriends room to see her fucking another dude.
"Jason!" She yelps, jumping off the guys lap.
"Are you fucking kidding me?" He asks staring at both of them.
"Wait... Jason let me explain." Ashley starts, covering her body with a thin sheet.
"No. We're done. It's over. They said you were a slut and I was too blind to see it. It's over Ashley." He snaps before walking out her room and soon out of her house.
"Is she going to be okay?" Tessa asks the doctor.
"Yeah. She's just stressed. That's all." He reassures her.
"Ok. Maybe she just needs to rest a little more."
"No. Not a little. A lot." He says.
"Mm. Well Journey's not the type to just rest." Tessa says.
"I guess you're gonna have to force her." The doctor teases.
"Yeah. I guess I am." She sighs, knowing how tough it was going to be.
Just then, Jason walks down the hall, holding a small teddy bear.
"Hi." He says walking up to Tessa.
"Hey. A teddy bear?" She chuckles.
"Um yeah. I just figured she could use something to hug or keep her company while she's here." He smiles.
"Awe that's sweet." She says. He looks through the window and suddenly frowns when he sees a breathing mask over her face.
"She had an anxiety attack." Tessa mumbles.
"She has anxiety?" he asks.
"Yeah. She's had since she was younger but after Danny... It got worse."
"Hum... What triggered it?" He asks.
Tessa was quiet for a few seconds. Should she tell him the truth? She really wanted to. I mean this was her best friend
"Tess?"
"Do you... Date black girls Jason?" She asks, making his eyes widen.
"Uh... I've dated black girls... But..." He sighs, looking at Journey through the glass, a smile on his face.
"None of them compare to her."
Tessa mentally awes. Just seeing the way he looks at her and talks about her. It's so cute.
She just hoped that somehow someway, they'd eventually be together.
And happy...
(A/n: just to let you guys know...
Some of these things that I write have happened, but others have not.
But the feelings that Journey is experiencing are real and have happened to me.
Leave your comments.
Love you guys for reading and helping me gain my closure:)
