Love to Forget

Therapy

As I recline in this low lit room in a chair that I declared I would never be discussing my relationship issues.

I think to myself...

"I need a happier more meaningful life. I used to dream of a life that consisted of a husband that provides and who loves me like I'm the last woman he wants an attraction with. A man that can also handle the blunt side of me."

But instead l can't get one man to commit to me and my wants.

I look over to Tracy my therapist and asked "What am I doing wrong?"
Tracy took a deep breath as if she knew the reply would irritate me.

"Well Ashlynn from what I gathered, you have an issue with control when it comes to men. I'm sure men see that you are a strong educated woman, but that is a statement you don't need to boast.

To some degree I agree with Tracy but if a an issue with his ego then he's barking up the wrong tree.

"Ok Tracy your the professional so I agree to not boast about my sucess".

I come from a single parent home. My unapologetic mother left the picture when I was 6 years old.  My dad raised me, my older brother Derek, and my older sister Allison.

"Give that a try". Tracy continued to say. "Dont make yourself feel less of a woman but just leave that detail out when getting to know someone.

I agreed and thanked Tracy, but it was  almost five and I had to pick up my  daughter Jasmine from my dad's.