Dear Diary

On My Mind

Dear Diary,

On my mind again.

She's on my mind again. All I'm trying to do is study for finals, but she's on my mind again.

I don't want to fail this test, but everything I saw reminded me of her. Everything! My textbook, my pen, everything caused the thought of her to rush back into my mind.

I get up from my desk and head to my bed, maybe I can fall asleep, and study tomorrow, finals aren't till Thursday anyway.

I wake up, it's Wednesday, 7:30. I shower, eat, and get dressed. She's still floating in my mind.

I try to wash my head of her, but she just comes flowing back.

8:00. I arrive to school and I see her. River. She's heading to her locker... Her stride tall, her movements resembling a willow blowing in the wind. Truly, we used to be good friends... But then life happened. We faded.

After we started to break away from each other, I developed a crush on River. It was mainly that whole "Want what you can't have" thing.

I walk past River, we make eyes at each other, I blush. She smiles. And I start channeling my inner tomato.

BAM. I walk into the wall. Oh god, I walked into a wall, great going.

"Emma!" I hear my name, I turn, to see my friend Julie walking over.

"Hey Jules," I say "What's up?"

Julie smiles at me,"You coming to my party tonight?"

I return her smile, "Maybe... I have a lot of studying to do."

"River will be there," Julie replied.

My smile rises to a grin. " Okay, I'll come..."

7:30 PM. I arrive at Julie's party. No River. Yet.

8:00. River arrives, instantly I notice, as I'd been staring at the door.

8:15. I work up the courage to talk to River.

"Hey," I say, walking towards her.

"Hey Em, long time no see, eh?" She responds to me, in her smooth, wonderful voice.

10:15. We've been talking, and talking. It's been amazing, but I know I have to be home by 10:30.

We've retreated to Julie's room. We're alone. I don't want it to end.

"Shoot," I look down at my watch "River, this has been great, but I've gotta get home, curfew, y'know?"

River nods "I should get going myself, but here," River hands me a slip of paper. "This is my new number, text me, yeah?"

I grin, setting the paper in my purse "Totally." I walk towards the door.

"Hey, Em?" River asks.

I turn to answer "Yeah?"

River leans up to kiss me. I Embrace it.

River threads her fingers through my hair, I feel... Bubbly... Nostalgic.

River leans back "Don't be a stranger, eh?"

I nod, not being able to find the words to speak.

I say my goodbyes and leave, unable to wipe the grin off my face.

Now we're here. With me writing in you, my diary.

And she's on my mind again.