It was the 7th July 2014, I had been trying to film this video for what seemed like forever. I had to take a break and think this through, was this really ment to be? Some advice could have helped and so I called my mom she knows what to do, cos she's a super mom!
As I walked downstairs to get my phone from the kitchen, I saw Kian and JC get the shopping in from the door, I fought I ought to help them, as I did i was trying to think about life after O2l.
When I called my mom, she was trying her best to help me, but I could also hear her trying not to cry. I asked her why she was crying and she said she was proud of me for not giving up and doing what's best for me and not my brothers( the other o2l members), I think she finally saw her little Connor grow up. She also gave me a lot to think about. I suddenly thought of how o2l happened in the first place.
I talked to JC and the others at dinner about my choice of leaving and the first ever o2l video. As we talked while eating pizza I wondered how you guys( my viewers) would take my choice, I guessed that most of you would turn your back on me and some would give me support on my choice.
Later that night I finished the 100th take and then started to edit it, as I said my last "I love you guys", I started crying cos this had literally changed my life, I had more viewers and made 6 new best friends( if you include Riccardo). They all heard me crying, but Ricky was the only one to come and see me, he hugged me until I was settled down and we ended up just talking about my life and how I feel now after everything that has go on. I didn't know what to say, how do I feel? I felt like crap and wanted to just cry all my emotion out, but if I was going to be strong I had to start editing my last ever O2l video.
It took hours for me to edit as I just kept thinking about my first ever o2l video saying my first ever " wassup guys, Connor here" and how thankful I have been since that.
At about 7pm I uploaded my video, I felt curious about how you guys would react but I felt happy after reading all your lovely supportive comments. This is why I love you guys and why I will never stop youtube. Just cos I stopped doing o2l it doesn't mean I won't use my main channel, maybe just not as often as I need a break from youtube.
Later that day the best thing ever happened, my viewers got #weloveyouconnor trending world wide. It just made me feel your support and loved by everyone, I was the happiest I had been in weeks and happy that my last video wasn't a bad way to end. I got very few bad comments and those who were dicks can just forget about me now, it is their choice to watch me, I don't make them.
I wen to bed early that night as I wasn't in the mood to celebrate, so I just went under my covers and cried a lot, I don't think I had ever let go of anything more important to me than this.
As I fell asleep I could hear my phone buzz and it was Troye, he sent me a message saying that we could talk anytime, if I needed someone. I just love Troye he is so friendly and nice to everyone even pricks cos he doesn't care what they think and I admire that from such an amazing bloke. We have become really close over the last few weeks and I love that, I really do.
I fell asleep about 30 minuets later as I was texting Troye, I wonder what tomorrow will be like, my first proper day being a non-member of Our 2nd Life!
YOU ARE READING
Goodbye Connor
FanfictionThe story after Connor franta leaves O2l, does he still live with them, are the others mad?