Evanascence

Never Ever

"This is never going to happen." , I said to Mr.James,my pitch higher than normal ,and my face reflecting the worst emotion of all.

"Mia,first listen and then argue.You are being too stubborn.Its been almost 5 years since your band had any great concert..it seems that Dusk Stars as a band does not exist anymore.Your fans have lessened in numbers,the fame that the band had owned has drowned.Your fans are taking on new fandoms and promoting them..The songs that you sung with so much of love and dedication are rarely being played.It is high time that you start thinking of something new to give your people before they totally turn away disappointed." , Mr.James said calmly, and let out a long sigh of despair.

His eyes didn't have a speckle of hope in them like it used to have, all I could see in his eyes was hopelessness.I could sense his sadness just by standing beside him,and he gave me a look which said it all,  he wanted me to listen to him and accept his decision.Unfortunately he looked at the wrong person for the approval, whatever happens, even if this world turns upside down, I am never ever going to approve his wrong decision. Even if I want to approve the decision, I won't because if I do that then Dusk Stars will lose whatever it has gained till date, it will lose its self identity, and also because I am Mia, a girl who never gives away her self identity and self respect whatsoever.

Without much of hesitation, I said, "Mr.James, listen to me carefully, I know that you are our manager and we love you for all that you do for us. We are extremely grateful to you but don't you dare think that we seven are going to agree to your decision, even if they do,I am not going to do by any chance. And do you think Maewnam will do, she will never.So stop giving such stupid decisions which no one is going to agree to."

"I know Mia,she is not going to agree to this decision ,but she will, only if you agree.So I plead you to listen to me this one last time and understand the reason behind me taking this decision.You need to face the reality, you can't run away from it. You need to agree to this for the sake of living your dream, for your first love music, for your friends and, moreover for yourself. At times you need to make some sacrifices for the path you want to lead, you have to get of your comfort zone, and at the right time, because there is no use of crying when time has ran out and when all the doors of light has been closed. You have to, take this as my command. You know me, I won't force you for something that is worthless."

"Mia, I guess you should agree to this decision. If this plan works out, then Dusk Stars can comeback to where it was. We can regain what we had lost.So please, give it a thought. Mr. James won't decide something without much of thinking and something that is against our interest and would harm us.We five are definitely agreeing to this ,and I know Maewnam will, if you do. So I guess you should leave your rebellious nature aside and think of giving our band a new restart.", Kylie said, and her words did strike a chord of my heart, but the wrong chord.

"What!!Are you all bailing out on me? Are you on his side? I was always there beside you all and for our band.How can you all abandon me like this?Look, whatever happens, don't you dare think that I am going to say a yes to this decision. And, Mr.James I am not running away from the reality and I know what the reality is, but I can never think of sacrificing the self identity of our band or what remains of our band to gain something that will not last, fame. I sing for this band for the love of music and not for fame. I am happy with us performing at local concerts and some random TV shows, it does earn us a living, maybe not like before when we started off our journey, and had a lot of fame and money worth nothing.I am happy with what I have now, I am not craving for more, and if you are so badly craving for that collaboration with that stupid kpop group who has millions and millions of fans, then go on, I am not stopping you.Have your own way, just tell them Dusk Stars has six members or five, if Maewnam stays back with me. I am stepping out.I will try my best to forget about this band, I will just try to think that this band never existed.", I said and as I said those words my eyes were full of tears..Even if I try at the hardest level,I can never ever forget this band,because this is where I belong to and where my memories are linked to.

"MIA!! Don't be so stupid.This is not us being on his side or your side.You are being immature and childish.You are stepping out from the band for the love of music,and we are agreeing to this for the same reason..We are not interested to do a collaboration with that band but we are definitely interested to bring back Dusk Stars  to the stage again..It is not for fame but for the motivation to do the best in something we love the most,music.We need it,we need the love to go beyond what we have explored.Our music has not died,but the support we used to get has kind of died,so we have stopped growing like we used to.You might have forgotten but it was the sound of our fanchant that  once was our heartbeat.Our hearts need to beat to that rhythm..We cannot think to disappoint the people who have placed so much of trust in us,we need to make them happy before everything is ruined..Now it is upto you,I have said what I wanted to,you can decide if you want to stay or leave...Whatever you decide,we'll be always there for you and keep loving you like we used to do.",Kylie said and this time her eyes were also glittering with tears.

"Nothing more to be said Kylie..I don't want to hear anything you want to say.I am stepping out,that's it! You can call me immature or whatever you want,but I won't be there as a barrier for you people for that collaboration. And don't love me,it hurts." , I said,my voice was all shaking suppressing those strong emotions surging inside me.

"MIA!!!!!!!!..........",Kylie cried.

"Just leave me alone...",I said,my face was all wet with tears.

I didn't let Kylie complete what she wanted to say,I just stomped off from the room and shut the door behind me angrily.I walked down the stairs and went to the nearby park..Tears rolling down my cheeks,and all of my emotions going crazy and wild inside..It seemed that a war was going on inside me.I sat on a bench in the park,looking at the lush green spread around me..to lose myself amidst the beauty of the chaos and to forget the existence of my memories....and everything.

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Hello readers!! 

Here is the first chapter of the fanfic.Hope you like it.Do give me your reviews.

Love,

Kiwi