Letters To My Ex

first off, i'm sorry

january 3rd.

that's when we met and i wish i remembered that day more clearly. i just remember your smile, and my smile and how i have been hooked on you since. still kind of am today.

it almost seemed perfect at first, that is probably what held be back so much. 

we talked about anything, and that was different from all my past relationships. i could be myself and you would just say the cutest things that i only dreamed of guys saying to me before. you made me happy, made me feel beautiful, but you distracted me. you still do. talking to you was so easy at first.

all i thought about was you, and you consumed my mind. i still blame you for my marks dropping. to me it was mostly all about you, and i think it was all about me in your mind. 

so it confuses both of us why i would go for someone else. it's my biggest regret, basically cheating on you. i would never call it cheating because we never dated... but we both know that it was. and more than once. and i regret all the horrible things i did to you when all you did was treat me like a princess. 

you were what i needed.

but i was bad for you.