Slanted Words

The Journal of Lily Sinclair

September 16th, 2017

Have you ever realized that there are so many words in the English language, yet we use the same one to mean multiple things?
Let me explain. So in English class today we learned about homonyms and homographs.

Essentially a homonym is a word that has the same pronunciation but a different spelling and meaning.
I.E. brake and break.
A homograph is a word that is spelled and pronounced the same way, but means something different.
I.E. lie and lie.

So maybe it's my fault. And apparently I didn't understand that when Jeremy promised that he would never lie to me or break my heart, he meant something else. Because I interpreted that as meaning he wouldn't betray and hurt me. I guess he just meant that he wouldn't lay next to me and physically separate me. My bad. I guess that he kept his promise after all.

September 28th, 2017

I'm worried I might be confused again. You see, Sam told me he liked me today. But what does that actually mean?
I like you. Well I like music, but not rap. I like pizza, but I wouldn't eat it everyday. I like tigers but I would never want to own one.
So why would he tell me he likes me? He doesn't really know me. Maybe I'm not the one who's confused. He is.

October 2nd, 2017

I don't think Sam was confused. And I don't think that I was confused. I think he might actually like me. Or atleast that's what the roses and the "Will you be my date to homecoming?" banner want me to think. And I wasn't confused when I immediately said yes.

October 17th, 2017

I wasn't confused when we danced tonight. When my shoes hurt my feet and he carried me to the car. I wasn't confused when he walked me to my door and told me I was so beautiful he could kiss me. And I definitely was not confused when my lips crashed onto his velvet ones.

October 20th, 2017

He asked me to be his girlfriend today. And I wanted to say yes. But Jeremy was there... and I remembered that I'm not so good at interpreting what words mean. And that I often don't understand them correctly. So I told him that we were already friends.

October 24th, 2017

Sam isn't speaking to me. I don't think that there's a hidden meaning here. Because I can no longer interpret his words.. because I'm no longer receiving them. And I've come to realize that Sam's silence is the loudest I have ever heard.

October 27th, 2017

I went over to Sam's house today. I cried. I told him I was broken and that it wasn't his job to put me back together. But yet when he hugged me, it was like he did.

October 31st, 2017

We dressed up as Superman and Lois Lane for Halloween. And that's my new favorite homograph. My Hero.