ME, MYSELF & I

9. Moving On

I didn't have words to express
How I felt when I was younger
Because I was dumb
Now I'm not near you,
I don't have the fear of you
Running around in my mind,
I can tell you the truth about
How I feel about you and
Everything that happened between us

You were supposed to be
Someone I look up to, respect even
But I didn't
All I did was live in fear of you
I have always hated you,
For days, months and years
You drove me insane everyday thinking back,
Returning to those awful days in my mind
You filled up me with hatred and fear

Looking back at things you did to me
I, now, understand
All you probably saw growing up
Was angry, malice and jealousy
And how to solve problem by hitting

I have been holding on to this angry towards you for years
I couldn't get over the things you did to me
But now thanks to a friend of mine,
She advised me to forgive you
And move on and know that
It was a generational upbringing
That made you that way