~Troubled Soul~ (Jinson//Jackjin)

9. 💙

- A-Actually... I... I wouldn't like to bother you or distract you from what you have to do - I wiggle out of his grip and smile. - Are you free tomorrow? - He's shocked, he sure didn't expect this response but... yah, I can't let him win like this. He coughs and then looks at me with a curious look.

- S-sure... - He looks down - ... Honey. - He's a smirk on his face. Ugh. Fine, I deserved it. I roll my eyes. - Breakfast time? -

- Hum... Fine... Where? -

- I'll come and pick you up. - he smiles.

- How do you know where I live? -

- Well... 'Cause you're about to tell me. - he winks at me and I laugh. This boy...

- Hum... It's over there, the first one on the left, the white one. - I say smiling and he smiles proudly as he's just got what he wanted.

- See you tomorrow, then. - He winks and I smile. - Hum... May I hug you? - I feel my cheeks being invaded by a sudden heat.

- S-sure. - I try to smile and he cutely hugs me.

- I was going to do it anyways... - he whispers into my ear and I sigh hugging him back.

- Yeah, obviously... - I say and he slowly pulls his head back to face me without interrupting our hug. He stares deeply into my eyes and I feel my heart beat so fast I'm pretty sure he can feel it too. He delicately leans his head towards me and I squint my eyes.

God... Our lips are so close, once again, I feel like I could explode, I'm so scared. Yeah, I know it might look stupid that I feel scared but the fact is this feeling is so new to me, and I am absolutely not able to handle it, and yes, I am scared of things I can't handle.

Contrary to what I expected I feel his soft lips sweetly peck my left cheek and he looks at me smiling kindly as I slowly open my eyes.

- Yah... - he whispers in a kind deep voice. - I'm not going to force you to do anything you don't feel like doing, okay? - he smiles reassuringly and my heart melts. Okay, this was soo sweet. He's... Ugh... Nope, still no words to describe him. He calmly steps back.

- Thanks - I smile back. - A lot. - he shrugs his shoulders while he keeps that stunningly cute smile on his face.

- No problem, princess. - Ugh... I roll my eyes but then smile... I have a feeling I'll have to get used to being called like this.

- See you tomorrow Seunnie. - I wave at him and he gives me a slightly surprised smile before waving back and heading towards his house.

I get back home, have dinner, take a quick shower and then get under the sheets.

I'm not crying tonight, I'm not going to be sad tonight. I have a bright smile painted on my face tonight. And it's because of him.

What I'm feeling right now its beyond words. Really, he made me feel like I had never felt before.

He made me feel good.
He made me feel happy.
He made me feel worthy.
He made me feel at home.
He made me feel like
there's still some good
in this rotten soul of mine.
Because he took it,
He shook it,
He fixed it
And owned it.

Yes, I'm terrified. Because this whole situation is not under my control,
but I have a feeling
and I honestly hope
it is in better hands now.

And I finally fall asleep. Happily, gladly, sincerely, quietly and thankfully smiling.

------ time skip ------

I wake up early in the morning and I lay awake in my bed for a few minutes.
I'm not even feeling sleepy today,
I just can't wait to see Jackson.
I sigh and cover my face with my hands.