The way, the feeling.
It was electrifying.
Like touching thunder, and breathing lightning.
The clouds moved apart to cast a shadow upon you.
But you didn't care because you were so fond of me.
Were.
We had such great times, we laughed with each other. And although I was never ready for anything else, you seemed to understand all of it.
Seemed.
I remember the way that you called me beautiful. The way it left your lips like the sun shining down onto the green flowered hills.
I remember the way you would do silly impressions of characters from TV shows just to get a laugh out of me.
I remember going to school one morning, and seeing you with another girl.
Having people come up to me and saying "sorry about the break up".
Even though you never did break up with me.
Did.
Because you cheated. Made me feel torn and free, I wasn't ready for freedom. You made me feel that feeling that I didn't want to feel.
Love.
Maybe, I thought that this was a good thing.
Because truthfully, the feeling came after you cheated on me.
After you kissed that other girl.
After you never broke up with me.
I'm sure you meant to break up with me, but you never did.
But let me tell you this, I will never be cheated on ever again.
That was your first and last chance.
You will never break me again.
Yet here I am, wishing I was in your arms, and wishing that you could see all of the looks in my eye when I looked at you.
But we could never be.
Because this wasn't a love story.
This was just you cheating.
Breaking that bond of trust that took me four months to gather.
But, why are we still friends?
Why do I call you, and text you?
As if none of this had ever happened.
Why did I let you break me apart, and then let you tell me more about the girl that you cheated on me with?
Because I'm stupid, that's why.
Although I will never gain the courage to tell you this. I hope someday I will.
Because that feeling in my heart, only hurts worse when you're not around.
Why?
Maybe because I will never understand what it is truly like to have a boyfriend that understands and wouldn't cheat on me.
Because, I will never have a guy that I will fully trust ever again.
Now all of the damage you caused me, will never be healed ever again.
I am alone.
And alone I shall stay.
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Hello!! Alexis here. Yes, this is about someone. No, I will not give you his name.
I will tell you this, I loved him.
With most of me.
Well, I actually wrote this poem because I was reading one by @amritkaur98 so go and follow her if you can!! And don't forget to swing a vote or a comment this way.
(Not out of desperation, just so you can help out a wannabe author like myself) :)
See you in my other books!
Goodbye ;)
(Not forever, although it might be...) :(
