Before I wrote this via mobile, know that I was hurt, angry, amd jelous that got me the idea of writing this down here. Why here? Maybe for the possibility of publishing it, if the mood allows me to. Not that I'm saying that I'm controlled by my mood but, I'm not really sure myself if I want to publish this kind of content to the public. It's nothing interesting, it's just a bunch of complaints, written down anger, a readable feeling if you insist. Though I know there's no such thing as that, let's just say I made it up.
So yeah. Well today, I'm really hurt. Wanna' know why? If you want to know, keep on reading. Sorry if I have such a bad attitude if you're still reading, trying to understand what the fvck is wrong with me me, if you're not, well, whatever.
Well today what happened is that, sorry if I write like this. Not your usual story style writting, I'm probably like, talking style writting. I don't even know if that sht exist. Who knows? Not me, clearly.
Here it goes, so me and my friends were planning something like a goodbye get together for my friend Mike at his house, we were supposed to eat shrimpd during that day which is later. And we planned to buy the shrimps in the market this morning so that we might catch something fresh or cheaper, so I told Mike that I want to go market and buy the shrimps with him. Note that we've been friends since grade school 'till now or probably a while ago since I'm planning to break our friendship cuz' I feel just so fvcking upset right now.
He said no, I can't go to the market with him and buy those shrimps, I asked "why?", the next thing he told me was either he buys the shrimp himself or he just let me be the one who buys the shrimp myself without him. -- It clearly says that he doesn't want to go with me to the market. Why? I have no idea when I asked why can't I come with him, he went offline RIGHT AWAY.
So yeah, I CLEARLY see where I stand to my former friend's life and thank God I did, now I know what he truly thinks of me.
He's leaving for college anyway, hope he gets a good life. Bye to him and our friendship. I have nothing against him from leaving, for all I care. What really hurts me is how he treated me when I just wanted to accompany him to buy the shrimps. I mean, WHAT'S SO FVCKING WRONG with buying shrimps in the market with me?
Damn it. If only I knew how low he looked at me or how he felt ASHAMED of being with me from all these years, I would have backed off myself long before we've started college. I hate to be with people who doesn't like me. I'm not forcing him to like me as a friend or anyway, why the fvck did it take me this long to realize that what we had wasn't friendship. I'm just someone he hangs out with cuz' we have the same circle of friends. Now I know, so don't worry buddy. I'm out.
