"SELAMAT ULTAH radcliffe18!!!! he said.
Yeah, today that was my birthday but i didnt feel special at all. Everything suddenly changed when i got that message.
Actually I really hope that he wrote more longer than this, or wrote his wish for me. But I definitely sure he wont do that bcs he has prestige so high (maybe).
Its been a long time no see him. Last time I saw him when we met at Sis's birthday i guess. I'm not say that I'm really miss him, but its not false at all xoxo.
I brave my self to invited him and met each other, wops you may suppose that we'll meet just me and him. You're wrong! Absolutely with my friends.
Yeah, he is my first crush. I met him when we're in junior high school. Ok back to my birthday.
After we met, the awkward moment just begun. This was out of my expectation, he was so chill. I'm dissapointed at all. Actually, my friends told me that i must go on.
They can said I'm out of my mind, that I shouldn't be with him yeah it is so damn true. But they dont understand the way i feel for him is unlike any other thing what i felt before.
That I'm not crazy I'm just a woman looking for reason to find him over and over again.
Yeah, until today I still dont know why we break at the past time. I'm sure he wont give me second chance to be sorry about that.
May, 2018. It was his birthday. I sent him a message and wrote my wish.
"hbd! semoga yg km semogakan terkabul aamiin" which has mean I wish nothing but the best for him.
At the same time, with my stupidity i hope that we'll have more longer conversation. So I brave my self to talk much more. But I felt he didnt interest with our weird conversation and it takes about 3 days I guess.
When we were in junior high school, i ever made a birthday surprise like a short movie about him. But i dont have much bravery give it to him. So I decided keep it until now hm how sad.
When i opened my instagram i break a little inside, bcs another girl can fell free congratulated you at the public.
And the sad moment you surprised her back. If the old me i will cry at the corner of the street i guess wkwk.
But no, now I'm the new me. I am happy when i saw you. And I really hope sometimes when we meet I would be sorry about what I did last time. And i want you to know that i never plan that i leave you.
I'm not sure sometimes you may read this. I just wanna say thank you for the chance that you give to me and sorry. Thank You bcs let me wrote your name at my bio. Yeah you bring it into reality. Which i ever dreamt about that when you still with her. And sorry bcs i'm labil when i was younger, which got me regret with my decision.
Now, I wish everything what you want come true and the best for you. If the time let us to united again, with all of my heart i would be glad bcs I fall in love with my bestfriend.
