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hi niall,
it's me again.
i did something really stupid yesterday. But it felt good. I couldn't take it anymore. Every time I looked in the mirror, all I saw was an ugly, disgusting and fat girl. My mom forced me to eat, cause I was skipping breakfast, lunch and dinner. The minute I finished my plate, I rushed upstairs and made myself throw up. I had to niall, i'm fat.
I watched all your video diaries tonight, to cheer myself up a bit. You keep me sane Niall. It's unbelievable. The only thing you have to do, is smile, and I can immediately feel myself feeling better again. You make me stronger. But it hurts. It hurts to know, that the one person who makes you strong, the one person who means the universe to you, doesn't even know you exist.
I feel like giving up. I feel empty, I feel numb. I can no longer fight anymore. But there's something stopping me from giving up. There's something in the way, something that makes me keep my feet on the ground. And that something, that something that keeps me strong and sane, is you.
love
Ashley *:･ﾟ✧
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I promised to update faster, so, here is chapter 2 :)!
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letters || niall horan.
FanfictionShe writes him letters, almost every day, she tells him her biggest secrets, her biggest fearS. She trusts him, but he? He has no clue who she is and that she even exists. We're talking about a girl named Ashley Anderson and a boy named Niall Horan...
