Death is not the greatest loss in life.
The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.
"Swettie, please listen to me. " I shake my head while tears blur my vision. My eyes are red and puffy from all the crying.
"No mom, I'm scared. Please don't leave me. I need you, please don't leave me!"
"Everything will be okay. I'm just getting the phone, that way we can call the police, dear." I don't listen to her, I know the danger we could be in if we don't hide.
"No! Please, don't go!" I say pulling her closer to me while I head to the attick.
"Alright, go. I'm right behind you."
When I'm all the way up, I look down to help her but I see her giving me a loving look. I don't have words to describe how I felt at that moment. She was risking her life for someone the didn't deserve it.
"Mom, please. I'm not worth it. Don't sacrifice yourself, we can both make it out, just please don't go!" I whisper while tears stream nonstop.
"Don't say that, you are the best thing that ever happened to me. I will go down there and if they catch me, if they kill me, I need you to promise me that you will hide until you are safe, until the police comes. Darling, I know that hiding is easy, I know for a fact that if anything happens to me, you will blame yourself. Please don't do that, it will just burden your heart and that is all I don't want. I want you to live the best life you can have." I don't want to believe what she is doing this, I don't want her to leave me.
"Mom, please-" I trei to convince her to come up, but she cuts me off.
I love you, my dear little Savy. I love you. "
She starts closing the attick's door and I whisper "Mom"i start crying again. "Mom, don't. You promised!"
"Sorry Savannah, I love you."
She says while closing the attic door.
I manage to open it just a little and I'm able to see her while she turns her head. I can see the fear in her eyes as well as a shadow approaching.
"No please, ta.. take anything you want but please don't hurt me. I promise I won't call the police..." She was cut off by the shadow pulling grabbing her hair. She whimpers in pain and looks at me while mouthing the word 'hide'. But I can't. I want to close my eyes but I can't look away from her eyes, from the intensity of the fear they hold.
"Is anyone else here?!!" The person asks my mom while pulling her hair harder.
"No... No but please don't hurt me.... Please!" she says while crying even harder.
"It's to late, bi*ch. It's too fucking late." He says while putting the gun in her mouth and pulling her hair for her to see to the ceiling. She is watching me. I really want to, but I just can't look away. I feel so desperate, I want to help but I know that will probably end up killing both of us.
"You should have called the police." He whispers before pulling the trigger that immediately lets go a bullet in my mothers throat.
He let's go of her and enters another room. I cant seem to have control of my eyes, it's better to say I don't have any control over my body.
Time just stops.
I just stare at the blood that surrounds her head and neck. The expressionless and far away look that her eyes have. It's seems as if my mind is unconsciously painting the horrible image in my memory.
"Mom" I whisper.
My tears just stopped. Everything stopped. The only reason I lived in this damned house is gone.
She meant everything to me. Now all I have is my so called dad and his club whores.
I don't know how he could even cheat on the most amazing person on earth. She always had a smile on her face, and now, she is all covered with blood.
From my peripheral vision I see the blue and red lights but I can't hear a thing, it's like I'm under water, really deep.
I'm brought out of my daze when I hear the back door slam close and it's as if I pressed the play button in my computer. Tears start streaming again as I make my way down next to her.
"Mom... Mom. Please, don't leave me. " I start crying even harder.
I put her code and hug her, I hug her like I never did before.
"Mom everything is going to be alright. I'm making dinner tonight, what do you think?" I look down and notice that I'm covered in blood.
In my mom's blood.
"Mom, I promise I'll be a better daughter, we can go to the movies after this. I promise I"ll be good just don't leave me please." I hug her harder.
"Just don't leave now. Not like this!" I cry.
"Put your hands where I can see them" Yells a police officer. I see the confusion in his eyes. It must be strange to see a young girl hugging a bloodied body.
"No! " I shout at him. "We are going to cook dinner and watch a movie. We are alright! " I scream at him. I know we are not alright, that she is dead. But I don't want to believe it. She can't go now, she can't leave me.
The police starts pulling me off my mom while I sob and cry even harder.
They take me out of the house. The lights of the police trucks blind me, it takes about five seconds for me to clear my vision. I take a look around but everything seems to move in slow motion, people are going in and out of the house. I can't recognize anyone, I can't understand what they are saying, I can't answer their questions because not even I know what just happened.
I don't know what to do anymore.
