Weird ass rant.
Between all the misunderstandings it has to be with someone I was getting attached to.
“Don't get emotionally attached to people you meet online”
That's what I said.
Then I had to go and break the rules I made.
God damnit.... I'm useless? Am I not?
Tbh... I can't remember one shit that I did right.
One memory brings others along with it.
They have a party up in your head when you are just feeling dead.
Dead.
Another piece of me died today.
I didn't.
And now I'm rambling in here.
I need to.
I have to tell someone right?
How can I survive?
The answer is that... I can't.
I'm dieing everyday.
You are killing me everyday.
I just don't show it.
I'm okay... right? I'm okay.
Because quite frankly no one would understand.
I'm at fault obviously.
Because it was me who made the first move.
How can I survive?
I can't.
I'm too dead to survive.
I'm too dead to feel the feelings that pound in my heart.
I don't feel.
I don't.
I.
Do.
How can I survive...when no one wants me to survive?
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Random Stuff
AcakJust some poems and quotes or other things I wrote. There might be angst, depression and all dark stuff like that. May or may not be my own emotions...who knows? Maybe I don't have emotions...
