Rise

don't lose hope.

Bad days. We have all had them. Just know the difference between a bad day and a bad life. To be honest there is no such thing as a bad life. As long as you're happy,that's all that matters. Yes we all mess up, break apart and get hurt. Yes it feels like we can't go on sometimes, but that's when you have to wipe the tears away, put your big girl/guy pants on and let it go. Yes it's hard. Recovery is hard,who promised it would be easy in the first place? What I do promise is that it gets better. Day by day you will smile more, not feel so alone and then, before you know it, your habits will be in the past. Yes it's hard but the results are truly amazing. I know because I've been Depressed. I know what it's like to feel so invisible, to go through the hallway at school, at the lunch table and through your classes and feel like you can't control it anymore. I got were I kept a blade between my phone case layers. I would go and cut my legs and arms at lunch and breakfast. I would sit mute until I couldn't hide it anymore. No one ever checked up on me or anything so I could cry for a few minutes and cut just enough that when I got home I could finish up what "had to be done". In a way, if I didn't cut I don't know where I would be right now. I would come home from school, go downstairs so I could fall apart in peace and not be disturbed. I would cut myself, blast music til I would have a headache afterwords. Which was a combination of crying hard and loud noise. I could conceal it away and the funny thing is, I had everyone fooled. They all thought I was so happy all year long. The fake smiles became my smile and when asked kg I was okay, I'm fine would work all the time. Sometimes you want them to say, you're not fine, you're sad and it's okay to be sad now,but don't be for long I love you and would really miss you, if you go I go. To bad I didn't have anyone to say that though. That doesn't mean I won't be here for you guys though. I want to help you,

Inspire your, and give you hope. It gets better but you have to want it, go for it, and don't loose hope. Music helped me alot and if ya need music recommendations I have plenty of bands that can help you that they understand and say what you can't. The beat and words speak to your heart and soul.