Me? You make ME the bad guy?
When you caused my fear, anxiety,
depression, which triggered turrets,
twitches, and other problems that dont help me..
And what was its solution?
It was a mental institution.
Treated like a mistake and
still you come as if there is
more for you to take but there isn't...
its gone along with all my sanity.
Humanity? Thats gone too
"There is nothing left for you"
"leave" " you don't deserve life"
That's all I hear, where are they?
Right here,
you caused this yet still I'm the bad guy?
Why?
Show me how I'm the villian.
Thanks to you I've tried overdosing on penicillin,
Melatonin, anti anxiety, anti depression, I've cut, but,
still I'm the bad guy?
I look at my life and who messed it up?
You.
So still, tell me. How am I the bad guy? Why am I the villain?
What did I do?
Nothing. It was you.
This mistake I call a life, is because of you.
I'm terrorized because of you.
All I wanted was someone who cared and loved me,
But you took that dream and crushed it.
Because I didn't want to rush it?
Once again I'm the bad guy?
In a hell hole you created?
I'm the villain?
How?
What makes me so bad,
Just because you got mad.
How am I the bad guy?
Why?
Why am I terrorized?
My life is analyzed,
By doctors who pretend to care.
This pain is more than i can bare.
If I end it,
You would bend it.
Bend the reasoning
The treasoning and sorrow.
If I wasn't here tomorrow,
You would be sure no one would notice.
I mean,
who would notice a fragile lotus.
That's what you called me,
A lotus.
A flower that radiates for only a few days,
then withers away to nothingness.
You say I'm bluffing.
I've done nothing.
I'm seen as nothing.
I am nothing.
I've nothing to lose.
I'm something just to use.
Then throw away,
Like trash from yesterday.
But still..
Somehow,
I'm the bad guy.
How?
In what way am I the villain?
Why?
I cry.
I scream.
I cut.
I try to die.
So why?
Why am I the bad guy?
What have I done to you?
