She's So Extra (Kiligserye Book1) | ✅

Chapter 32

Nagbuntong hininga lang ako, "Ganito pala feeling ng kabit."

Kinurot nya ang bewang ko but doesn't let me go when he says, "Hey. That's a bad joke."

I laugh a little, "Joke lang, 'to naman."

We stay like that for a few minutes more then I say, "Ano ba naman tong sitwasyon natin?"

He laughs, "You wanted this diba? So don't ask me."

Umurong ako at hinampas ang dibdib nya, "Loko ka ah. Hindi ko ginustong sumabay sa inyo no, late ka kasi kaya napilitan ako."

He grins but lets me go, "I woke up late."

I look at him, "Weh?"

He shrugs but gives me a naughty smirk.

I look behind me to check kung nandun na si Ms. Claire pero wala pa naman so kinausap ko na sya, "Huy. Wag ka naman maging masungit kay Ms. Claire, you know she just wants to talk to you diba? Yun naman ang plan, so you can let her know na wala na talaga."

He puts his hands in his pockets, "I thought that was what I was doing."

I roll my eyes, "Pwede mo naman gawin yun nang hindi nagpapaka-asshole."

His eyebrows shot up, "I was an asshole?"

I cross my arms over my chest, and tilt my chin up, "Yes. You were being very rude."

He sighs and brushes his hand through his hair, "I didn't mean to be." He puts his hand back in his pockets, "I'm just worried she might say something that would offend you."

I stare at him mejo confused, "What do you mean?"

He looks at me softly, "I know you don't like the situation we're in pero you're trying to be a good person at ginagawa natin to para hindi na sya umasa. That you're trying to spare her from future heartache and that you're trying to be a good friend to her. But you don't realize that you're also getting hurt in the process and I'm worried she might say something that will cause you pain or worry."

Hindi ko pa rin ma-gets so he continues, "She might ask me out or she might reminisce about all the things we used to do together and I know that will affect you even though you know that I would never agree to it. I know kahit na you're a strong woman you get affected too and I don't want to add to that. If I talk to her and be friendly she will be comfortable enough to talk to me freely even if you're there."

He holds my hands, "I also know that looking at her in the car and knowing that she's sitting in your spot is already annoying you but you're such a good person that you suck it up para lang sa kanya."

I look at him and shake my head, "I'm lying to her, it's the least I can do diba? And you're right ayaw ko nga marinig yung mga bagay na ganun but I also don't like hearing you being mean when I know you're really not. She's going to get hurt anyway so just soften the blow? Pwede bang ganun?"

He shakes his head, "She has no idea how lucky she is to have a friend like you."

I get nervous just thinking about it and I look down on my toes, "She's going to hate me when she finds out the truth."

He puts his finger under my chin and tilts my head up, he waits until I'm looking at him and says, "I hope she does 'coz she's going to miss out if she doesn't."

I let go of his hands and take a step back, "So, magiging mabait ka na ba?"

He sighs, "Fine. For you."

I grin, "Thanks."

"So, I got you guys some iced coffee and some pastries..." Narinig ko ang boses ni Ms. Claire sa likod ko and I give Chuck a small smile.

Tumalikod ako at nakita ang mga bitbit ni Ms. Claire at tutulungan ko na sana sya sa dala nya nang dumaan sa gilid ko si Chuck at inunahan ako sa pagtulong kay Madam.

She looked surprised but she smiled up at him, "Thanks."

Ah! Ang sakit. Pucha.

I composed myself at ngumiti kay Ms. Claire nang inabutan nya ako ng iced latte, "Thank you ma'am."

She waves a hand, "It's nothing."

Bitbit ni Chuck ang coffee nya at pastry bag pero pinagbuksan nya pa ng pinto si Ms. Claire, I think she blushed a bit pero sumakay na sya sa kotse habang ako parang tangang nakatingin sa kanilang dalawa.

Teka, tama ba yung nakita ko? Hindi ba clear yung pinag-usapan namin? Mali ba ako ng sabi?

Tangina, sinabi ko bang ligawan nya?

I look at him with a 'wtf' look on my face but he shrugs and grins, pinagbukas nya rin ako pero parang gusto ko syang kutusan.

I take a deep breath at nag-thank you sa kanya pero labas sa ilong.

Hinatak ko ng mabilis ang pinto at parang mejo sumakit nga ang tenga ko sa impact, napa-"Woah" si Ms. Claire and I just murmur a "sorry".

Nilagay ko ang coffee ko sa cup holder dahil nawalan na ako ng gana uminom or kumain, I just shoot Chuck a death glare na wish ko lang nararamdaman nya.

He gets in the car, puts his seatbelt on and puts on his shades and says, "Alright. Let's do this."

***

Ms. Claire laughs at something Chuck said, honestly I don't even know what they're talking about anymore, I'm just feeling really, really annoyed. Ginusto ko naman to diba? Gusto ko maging mas friendly, ayan sinunod naman ako pero pucha ang sakit nga. Ang gaga gaga ko, at kung umaarte lang si Chuck pwede syang bigyan ng award kasi ang galing nya. And I feel like he's not acting anymore. I'm being unfair to him and I know it, pero hindi pa rin ibig sabihin na kaya kong maging manhid, na it doesn't hurt.

Minasahe ko ang dibdib ko, sa part ng puso ko kasi kahit na wala naman akong nararamdaman, feeling ko kumikirot sya and I'm wishing this car ride is over.

Tumawa na naman si Ms. Claire and I can't help but roll my eyes and think oh for fuck's sake, that wasn't even funny.

I'm suffering pero kaya ko naman tiisin, kasi at least wala silang pinag-uusapang kakaiba like their past or something so ayos na rin.

They become quiet so I'm rewarded with silence and the sound of the engine humming. I sigh in relief.

I'm looking outside when my phone beeps, may message ako from Ms. Claire. I'm confused pero I open it and my heart aches a little when I read her message.

I take a deep breath and sigh.

I look for my earphones again at dahan dahan ko itong nilagay sa tenga ko. Pag tingin ko sa rearview mirror magkasalubong ang kilay ni Chuck and I adjust the volume of my phone - naka-todo para wala akong marinig.

I shift to my side para makapwesto ako nang maganda. I lay my cheek on the seat and close my eyes.

It's better this way na rin siguro, so I won't hear what she's going to say. Kasi alam kong plano na nyang kausapin ng masinsinan si Chuck. Na seryoso na syang magtatanong, kasi ang sabi nya sa text nya sa akin is to pretend that I'm sleeping.

At para bang nananadya ang tadhana kasi ang sumunod na tugtog sa cellphone ko is "Dreaming with a Broken Heart."

Bwiset.