Hope

Memories

Before 5 years

📌4th September 2014

Anant:Is she okay doctor?Anything serious or we can take her home?

Doctor:I'm really sorry Mr.Sehgal, but we can't say anything right now. Have patience and faith on the Almighty.

(I was making dinner in the kitchen and Anant havn't come yet. Then I don't know how but I got a headache and felt down suddenly. After that I didn't remember anything. When my eyes opened I found my self in the hospital's bed and heard the conversation.)

Husband: Is she be alright doctor?

Doctor: We did the blood test Mr.Sehgal and it'll take some time for the report. Till then we can't say anything.

After one and half hour

Doctor: I'm feeling very bad to tell you Mr.Sehgal that your wife is affected by cancer and she doesn't have much time.

Husband: (speechless) After a minute of pause. . . .

Husband:Can't you do anything doctor, for this!!

Doctor:I'm really sorry but you are late to bring her here and now we can't do anything.

Husband:Please doctor , do something. You don't worry about the fees. I'll give whatever amount you say. Just make her well.(while sobbing)

Doctor:Sorry!! But it's not about the money. She may have only 2-3 months left. Take good care of her and spend as much time you have, with her..

Car is in the front of our house and none of them talked to me during the whole journey.

📌6th September 2014

Me:What happened to me ? Can you tell me ?

Husband:Nothing honey. You have just the low blood pressure that's why you felt down.(while shrinking)

Me: Don't lie. You can lie yourself not me. So,say the truth.(I actually understood by that time that something unexpected happened to me.)

Husband: crying..crying..crying..

Me: Can't you stop crying!! Tell me the truth.

Husband: Don't worry honey, I won't leave you at any cost. I will be always with you. (Hugging while crying)
Doctor said you have cancer and and. . . . .

Me: (At shock. . .how!!
After Long pause. . . . )
How much time left?

Husband: There's nothing like that sweety. You are mine and we will be together forever.

Me: Say the truth..Please (Tears rolling down from my eyes)

While holding my hands he didn't say a little word and tears coming from his eyes again and again..

📌10th September 2014

After that day I finally realised that I don't have much time. That's why I decided to spend the rest of my time with my family.

📌11th September 2014
Anant cares a lot for me. He takes leaves from is office and spends his whole time with me.

📌12th September 2014

Ryan, my 5 years old son is going to school everyday with her grandma and he didn't even know what has happened to her mother.

📌13th September 2014

Today, Anant came and sit beside me on the bed while I was laying. He hold my hand and said ,
"Don't worry about Ryan. Maa will take care of him. He is alright."
It felt like he reads my mind and express my thoughts through his words. I cried and hugged him. I said him to take care of Ryan after me. He cried and hugged me back.

📌15th September 2014

Life is too short for me. Even it is that much short that I can't see my son grow up and I can't even present when he gets married. Lots of priceless things will be missed. Still that's the life I've got. Sometimes I am in depression but for the shake of those people I've to stay strong , otherwise they also felt apart and stop living their life, only because of me which I don't want. . .

So here is the 1st part of the story..how is it ??Let me know in comment section and I'm extremely sorry if there is any mistake in my grammar. Still do a read..
Here's the question?

Q:If you were Radhika what will you do means just accept the death in quite or something else? Let me know. .
A:If I were Radhika I'll try my best to live those limited moments which would be irreplaceable and do everything what I actually want to do.
Your ans. . . . . ???