'I won't say that I was tricked into joining the Yakuza. I knew what I was getting myself into. But I didn't realize that I would remain unaffected. I wanted power, I didn't want to be an outcast. I deserve this.'
This is the story of a girl's desce...
"Mom I'm back" I threw my bag on the sofa and went to get a get something to drink, all the while listening to music on my headphones.
"Mr Wu Jun, what did I say about leaving your things all over my house?" My mom shouted at me from the kitchen even though she knew I would just ignore her.
She was pissed but I didn't care. I had had a bad day and all I wanted to do was relax. Ever since my older sister Hua left home, my parents, teachers and many of my classmates thought that I would follow her footsteps so they acted like I was a time bomb ready to explode at any minute.
We had been close but now I didn't even know where she was. All we knew was that she was the girlfriend of the C.E.O. of JZT Enterprises. She had fought with our parents before leaving and didn't contact us anymore.
I don't know why they fought and I don't hate her either. I am angry at her for not even saying goodbye before she left. She just left me hanging and I am still hurt over it even though it's been a year.
I was an introvert by nature and spent most of my time in front of the computer. When my sister still lived with us, me and her used to try to hack into each others' accounts. We were really good hackers but she was better than me. That's why I couldn't track her location once she left. She had blocked me.
She had been the only one who could understand me. But she wanted to be popular unlike me who didn't mind being in the shadows. She was two years older than me meaning that she was 20 now.
I was 18 and I was leaving for college within a few months. I had a few friends and we were pretty close. But my parents weren't really happy with them and I had no idea why. To sum it up I was feeling stressed.
I went to my room. It was my safe haven.
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I dozed off for a while and woke up when I heard mom call me for dinner. I went down and greeted my father who had come back from work. He was a software engineer. We lived in Tokyo, Japan but we were Chinese.
We had dinner and my father switched on the television to watch a movie. I went back to my room. I was getting ready for bed when I heard my dad's phone ring I thought nothing of it and laid down to sleep. I must have dozed off and the next thing I know was my mom shaking me awake.
"Mom, five more minutes please" I mumbled sleepily.
I opened my eyes to see that it was still dark and was confused. I saw my mom sitting with her head in her hands. I switched on the light and head my mom sobbing. I had a bad feeling, a foreshadowing.
"Mom what happened? Are you okay? Why are you crying?" I asked her hesitantly patting her back.
"Jun, it's Hua" My mom continued sobbing.
"Mom why are crying? Did something happen to jiejie [older sister]?" I was getting scared.
"Sh-she is gone" my mom sobbed hysterically.
"What do you mean?" I asked uncomprehendingly.
"She passed away" my mom looked at me with red eyes.
I sat there in shock. "How?" I asked monotonously.
"She committed suicide" my mom sobbed uncontrollably.
"No, she wouldn't have. There must be a mistake" I said vehemently, tears coming out of my eyes.
I sat there refusing to believe it. The next day, it was all over the news. Her last letter was released. It was heart wrenching
'I am like a piece of dry clay. Once broken, it can never return to it's original state. Even if water is added, you cannot save it. It's easier to break it completely, it's easier to turn it to dust. I have passed the point of no return. I deserve to die. It's my own fault. I would like to blame others but in the end it was my choice. I can't find a reason to fight, to try to stay sane. I am done. am the only one to blame. It's time for me to leave. I am sorry, Goodbye.
Wu Hua'
I locked myself up in my room and cried myself to sleep. We attended the funeral. Mom was crying the whole time. Dad was in shock and I was numb.
A week later, I got an email. I was in shock. It was from my dead sister. I was confused but clicked on it hesitantly. It said something that would change everything.
'My dearest little bro Jun'
If you are reading this, it means I am dead, that I have been murdered. Don't cry, it's not your fault. I had it coming anyway. The reason I am sending you this is because I want you to know the real me. You deserve to know. I guess they must have made it look like a suicide. I even wrote that letter willingly. I know you are confused but you'll understand soon. I have sent you my secret diary via the email. I deserved to die. I am sorry to break it to you but I was scum. I wanted to die and my wish has been fulfilled. I am finally free. I hope you read the diary and understandwho I was and how I was. I am ashamed but you have to know. No matter what I love you bro.
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