Valerian Aus And Bullshit

mirroring windows(neighbour au part 1)

"oh you've got to be kidding me." I mentally yelled at myself for the reaction I had back then, I mean to me it made sense but they might have read it the wrong way i mean they aren't even talking to me anymore! I replayed the event in my mind over and over remembering the look in their eyes and rereading all of their every movement. What had they expected from me and why?  

my mother and father shifted their positioning into one of slight confidence but it was obvious they were somewhat nervous to speak up. a few minutes ago they had called me out of the depths of my room to explain some important news they needed to tell me. I mean, did they not know how I was going to react? or did I not understand because I thought I got in trouble for being exposed for something I didn't remember doing. i wasn't thinking clearly obviously. back to what's going on. My mother crossed her arms and sighed letting out some of her bottled up emotion with it. would she have cried at the thing to be revealed if she hadn't?  Shit what did I do that i don't remember?? My fathers mouth opened but his voice got caught on itself inside his throat. was he nervous as well? that doesn't sound like him. Oh wait my mother is speaking, she interrupted him.  "Okay I am just going to outright say it since your father is not speaking up, He got a job in austin texas and they pay a lot of money so I Am pretty sure you caught what I am trying to say already but i'll say it anyway. We are moving in a week so start packing and saying good bye to your friends fyhvny." She was right, I had caught on as soon as she said 'job' . part of me wanted to say she was lying, she used terms that distanced herself from my dad and she didn't use conjunctions which is a big red flag when mixed together but I don't see any reason to lie about this other than for shits and giggles but my parents aren't like that either plus they showed to much emotion in the beginning to not be true so what ever i guess i'm moving. I'm just going to ignore mumbling mess at the end of her statement. shuh ' if you have any?' god what a way to believe in your daughters social skills but whatever. I looked up at my mother's eyes, staring into her soul and then my fathers eyes with a poker face and eyes that felt like blank slates, I opened my mouth slightly and spoke "okay cool i guess, i wanna see our new house now," no emotion at all; god I could have at least tried. well its all over with now i guess. 

that was a week ago as I consult myself while listening to a soundtrack of a video game. We pass by neighbourhood and city with dry patches of land in between and soon i find myself lurking the white walls of a two story quite spacious empty house. which room will be mine? how can I sneak out of the house? after finding a room latching off one of the small hallways I notice it comes with a large window filling up almost the whole wall but with random large squares here and there to open up the large pane. they look like pixels and its nice. It is right across from the door leading back into the hallway. on the right there is a large closet which leads to a hidden bathroom, all hidden in the walls? I love this room already! to the left there is just a normal wall cutting this room off from anything else. I could fit my bed there. I fantasize about all my furniture and all the different ways i could rearrange this room into something homey and work-friendly. If I would normally stay in my room all day then this new house will make it so that the only times i have to leave is for food and school. "yup yup i want this room." after fumbling with in the pockets of my hoodie I pulled out a folded piece of paper and small cut of tape. turning around briskly I walk out of my soon to be room and i stick the note on the door. 'Valerias room :D' I walk back through the small hallways and down the stairs of my new home, walking towards the moving truck i help with what's left of the boxes. 

A few days have passed and I'm still trying to get settled in. School starts up again for me tomorrow and oh my god I need to revise my introduction. I walk towards my mirror as if it were a group of strangers and look myself in the eyes. tsk i hate myself sometimes but i'll ignore the feeling for now. I smile and tilt my head to the side just a little bit. "Hello" I wave my hand at my reflected self. "My name is Valeria and I just moved here from New mexico." I pretended as if people where asking me questions, I wonder if this is the same persona ill put up when I talk to real people. "ah my hobbies? I enjoy collecting marbles and oddly shaped glasses, I enjoy to draw and clean and i feel most relaxed in a intense game of chines checkers." I look myself in the eyes and loose the fake smile, who the hell talks like that? no one says that. My finger twirls with my curled bangs as i pace around my room cursing myself for not knowing how to speak until the time comes up. with half of my full hair in a high pony tail and the rest let down to rest on my shoulders and on my back; wow does my pitch black hair stick out when on my clothes. I wore a white short sleeve shirt with a pastel blue hoodie on top with black skinny jeans and pastel blue converse. God did i hate myself but I sure do love my fashion style. I wore this and similar every day. there has to always be some blue in my clothes. It's just how I am I guess. I fully open my slightly open window blinds just to notice the neighbour having a similar window too mine. The curtains on the other window taunted me as if ill never get too see who is on the other side of them. oh well.  

"I should really get around to sleeping soon." the thought echoed in my mind as the ending song of my show played through my headphones. school was in just 14 hours and I didn't want to show up full of fatigue on my first day. I pulled out the wire from the headjack and closed my laptop, plugging it in to charge right next to my phone which was charging soundly. I looked around my room. the large square pixels in the large window harboured my plants of all types with the slight breeze of outside messing with each individual window blind. the other walls had a different desk propped up against it along with a TV that i will probably never use and the rest filled out with little drawings from a long time ago and not so long ago. I stand to turn off a lamp from the otherside of the room when i notice a square in the window that's open. someone is staring right back at me from the other side of the neighbours window. The neighbour? So she was on the other side of the damned curtains huh. I smile and tilt my head to the side a little. I wave to the staring girl. she just stares but then smiles, a god so adorable smile, and she waves back but then closes her curtain. she had dark brown hair, messy hair. not long but not short. it was cute. I head back to my bed and tuck myself in, surrounded by natural darkness and some moonlight from the window I find myself missing the girl who i only saw for a few seconds. "i hope i see her at school tomorrow" I whisper to myself before letting slumber overtake the next few hours of my life. 

(1425 words)(1:21AM publish time)(not edited or reread over sorry for any mistakes)