Being a Kpop Idol | READER x JIMIN

01

chapter 1 ;'we're sorry for your loss'

I can't believe it or I just don't want to believe it.

it's probably the 2nd, but i don't want to admit it.

who thought Being A Kpop Idol would be this hard?

I just lost my sister, my bestfriend, our 5th member..

it hurts to know that she took her life because she couldn't handle the fame, the pressure of  being an Idol.

'we're sorry for your loss' kept repeating in my head.

how painful it is, i had to believe it one day, and that one day was totally not today...

when we came home, I locked myself in my studio. The studio I shared with Sooyoung.

I looked trough the room once again and the moments we had in here came trough my mind.

I felt the tears coming up.. I had no power left, I don't want to say I'm fine, when I'm actually not..  so I just let the tears leave my eyes, once again.

'y/n, please open the door, you can't just stay in there and cry. I know it's hard to -'

'No Yu Na, you know nothing, I became a BlackRose when I was 17. I had to leave my parents, brothers and sister. Sooyoung was there for me, she was always there when I needed her, she was like a sister.. she was a sister.' I said.

I was so selfish at that moment.. I acted like I was the only one hurting, the only one crying.

'..fine y/n' she said, and after that she left.

I sat in that studio for maybe 3 days and I wasn't gonna come out of it.

I looked to my right, and saw a picture of us- the blackroses, from when we debuted. we look so young and so happy.. when we have to do a photo shoot now, there will be one missing..

those thoughts kept popping up in my head that I was so caught up in the moment, I couldn't hear the knocks on my door.

'y/n.. please open the door for me?' a soft yet manly voice asks..

'go away..'

'please y/n.. i'm here for you.' he said.

it was Jimin.

Park Jimin

I slowly open the door, and as he walks in I started crying again.

He took me in his embrace as I just hug him back.

'what am I going to do without her..' I said while crying softly.

'you have to stay strong for your fans y/n. if she was here, she would say
the same' he said as he pulled away and looked in my eyes, ripping into my
soul as he came closer to my face.

then our lips where just inches away.
he licked his lips and kissed me. I was shocked at first, but then I kissed him back.

there was no tongue, no groping, no gasping, no moaning. It was gentle and sweet..

after kissing we stared at each other for a second, and then I stood, with my
heart soaring dizzily. I somehow stumbled to the door, and went to the living room, when I walked in everyone was shocked that I actually came out of the room.

but then somi, the oldest member asked;
'what's wrong with you?' I didn't know what to say.

that was my first kiss..

a/n; ~~~~ hi guys, how did you find it so far? I got inspired by Kim Jonghyun, he made Shinee complete as the 5th. And the idea of black roses, I was with my best friend in class and we talked about being in our K-pop group named black roses. so I put that into a story :)