i can't love you

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danny/adores POV
i wake up and quietly get out of bed trying not to wake roy, he looks so adorable when he sleeps, peaceful. not a care in the world. no problems. i go to the kitchen and grab a bottle of water and then go to the bathroom and grab an aspirin, i place them both on the bedside table next to roy before going to the living area. i decide to make myself breakfast, im trying to force myself to get better. for the fans, the queens, roy and most importantly; me. i make eggs and bacon, i try to eat it all but i dont, recovery isnt as easy as that. i ate as much as i felt i could and threw the rest in the trash.

i sit watching queer eye waiting for someone to wake up when i hear vomiting. roy. i rush into the bathroom and see him hurled over the toilet puking. i rub his back "its okay" i tell him and i sit them rubbing his back trying to comfort him until hes done. i make him shower and brush his teeth as i wait for him in our room. he steps out with a towel draped around him, he looks fucking hot and i must have been staring because before i knew it he had his bianca voice on and was saying "my eyes are up here chola!" we both laugh before i get serious "roy.." i say "oh no what did i do last night" he asks already embarrassed "well you kept telling me you loved me and kept trying to kiss me" i say "its fine though, i know you were just drunk" i say looking at the ground "but roy..i hope we can still be friends, i love you alot, alot alot. but i get that you dont feel the same and im just going to have to learn to accept that"i say, roy says nothing so i look up at him as if to say 'speak?? say something!' and he doesnt. i sigh and get up to leave, roy grabs my hand and spins me back around so im facing him, we stare at eachother for a few seconds before his lips crash onto mine i return the kiss. it's different to yesterdays, it was filled with passion from both sides. we eventually pull away for air and i rest my forehead on his "ive always loved you chola" he says "i love you willow" i reply. i eventually go to go back into the living area to watch more tv but he pulls me back and we fall onto my bed, neither of us want to go any further yet, kissing is enough for now. we make out some more and then we both go out to the couch. alaska and katya arent up yet so we both cuddle up and watch my favourite show-rick and morty. even if alaska and katya did see us it wouldnt matter that much, we have always been really close so i doubt they would think much of it.

roy/biancas POV
for the first time in years i felt completely content and happy with everything, just being sat cuddling adore filled my heart. i had my arms wrapped around her and she was curled up cuddling into me, i just sat there watching her, admiring her candid beauty whilst she was watching TV-it was like time just stopped, everyone and everything had gone and the world was silent. just adore and i. "what?" she said grinning as she noticed me staring at her "nothing, you're just beautiful" i tell her and she just smiles and cuddles closer to me if that was even possible "i love you roy" she says "i love you more danny" i respond.

"well well well what do we have here" alaska says dragging out her words as always "nothing" adore and i say in sync pulling away from our hug "i dont believe you" she continues "whatever queen" i say in my bianca voice triggering a laugh from adore. her laugh is magical, it melts my stone cold heart. once katya is awake all four of us decide to head out to ihop for some breakfast, we all chat about tour and literally anything and everything. as much as i pretend i hate everyone and as much as i read and throw shade, i do love all the rugirls, as cringy as it is-they are my sisters and they mean everything to me. especially adore,obviously.