"Skylar you need to forget about them" My best friend Josh groaned "Their not worth it."
"I didnt say anything!" I replied in a flat tone.
Josh rolled his eyes "Try not staring at them for a little while maybe?"
I found it hard to rip my eyes away from Jenna Green, I hate that girl so much that everything she does is offensive to me. Even while she ate lunch, eating those fucking cookies like she owns the place.
Josh got up from the table.
"Where are going" I said.
"I dont understand all this female shit"
"Okay, Okay I promise I wont bore you with anymore bitch problems"
Josh sat back down and took a bite out of his apple and an awkward silence descended
"so the weather?" Josh said.
I couldnt help but laugh, Josh hated awkward silences and did anything he could to avoid them, but this had to be his worst attempt ever to start a conversation.
"Are you seriously asking me about the weather?" I laughed.
Josh half smiled and scratched the back of his neck "Okay I cant believe im asking this but what the hell happened between you and Jenna"
"No I dont want to bring you down with the whole Jenna thing" I replied my smile fading from my face.
"Its obviously bringing you down Sky just tell me what happened?" He looked genuinely concerned so I decided to tell him the story of my so called best friend.
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"Hey Sky how was school?" I heard my mom call from the kitchen.
"Fine" I shouted back before running up to my room, I heard mom shout somthing after me but I didnt really care, I didnt really care about anything lately.
I ran into my room and pulled out my guitar and started strumming. playing the latest song I wrote,
"Do you how it feels to have your world shattered? to have your breath stolen from your lungs? to have the ground dissapear from beneath your feet? And all you can do is fall.
Do you know what its like to lose it all, to have it all stripped apart? To have your life fall away? everything just falls.
Tears rolling off my cheecks but I cant feel them anymore. I dont know what to feel so I just dont feel it anymore.
Im falling apart Im losing it all.
No way to stop all I can do is fall nothing to hold on to nothing left at all.Im falling apart Im losing it all.
Do you how to stop it all? To but the pieces back together do you know how to slow it down? to make everything better? I just fall.
Do you know how to make it out? To survive the apocalypse? how do you stop infinity? everything just seems to fall.
Tears rolling off my cheeks but I cant feel them anymore. I dont know what to feel so I just dont feel it anymore.
Im falling apart Im losing it all no way to stop all I can do is fall nothing to hold onto nothing left at all im falling apart im losing it all
And the worst part is that I am falling that little bit more im falling for you even though my heart is sore atleast I know its still there but I dont know for how long more.
And im falling apart im losing it all. No way to stop all I can do is fall nothing to hold on to nothing left at all Im falling apart Im losing it all
Im losing it all."
I curled up in my bed, just a week ago I had everything a group of friends a boyfriend a life. I dont know what happened how could I lose it all so quickly.
Josh is the only person who stuck by me to whole time.
before I knew it I was drifting off to sleep.
***
I was woken up by my cell phone beeping with a message.
Hey how are you doing? -Josh
I smiled at the message Josh had been so sweet since the whole Jenna incident.
Im fine thanks for asking :) -Sky
A few moments later my phone beeped again.
So are you free friday for a movie? -Josh
Yeah sounds great is anyone else going-Sky
Emm just us I think unless you want to invite someone else along?-Josh
Its fine see you tomorrow-Sky
I smiled at my phone having Josh was like having a brother he always looked out for me.
My stomach growled and I realized how long it had been since I last ate and ran downstairs to check what was for dinner.
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Hey welcome to my first ever wattpad book I honestly dont know if im doing this right so if you have any suggestions on how to make it better please please comment or leave me a private message If you like this book so far please vote and comment if you dont like it then f off.
sorry this chapter was really short but it just started to get bright outside and I didnt even realize it I really need to get some sleep.
xoxoxo
