It's not easy walking around with my head down or with my shoulders slumped. You took everything out of me. You broke my trust and pushed me around until you got your way. You turned everything around on me.
Everyone talks about how girls get depressed and don't eat. How they are the ones who feel worthless and like us, guys, always play with their feelings.
But look here, look at my face. Do you see a smile or any sign of recent happiness? If you could look inside, you'd see my heart was broken, bruised, and ruined.
You, a girl, ruined me. I spoiled you and gave you the world, my world. Everything. I would have given you everything.
Now, it takes four times the amount of energy to get out of bed and go on with my day without you....
And I don't even try to smile anymore.
People say you aren't worth it but I'd still take you back if you came to me.
Because my shoulders wouldn't be hunched over, my head would be up, and there would be an everlasting smile.
It's not easy knowing there is someone better than me out there for you.
It's not easy with you being someone I used to know.
Written on July 7, 2014
